I must confess: i don't want to be loved

I currently consider the idea of being loved as a burden. This have been the case for many years, already. Because someone is running after you, have some expectations, and then accuse you of not meeting either those expectations or requirements to be loved. Too much stress, and make life more complex than when I am alone and free. This is extremely energy consuming for me, and I only want someone that basically thinks exactly the way as I do. That's easy : harmony of body, mind, heart, soul and Soul. (The earthlings soul, and the divine Soul) Spending time with me can also be exhausting if you don't like to talk or to think deeply. I have an easy way to make abscond reasoning (high logic level), and if you cannot follow, this either will be exhausting for you or for me. If I wanted to be a teacher, I would be one. (Even though people usually like a lot when I explain things, as I adapt to whoever is listening in order to increase this person's knowledge and understanding) Also, I am the "anti drama" type. You know about the "Karpman's triangle" ? (Also called "dramatic triangle") Well, I am the kind of man that consciously avoid "playing" those kind of games. Because I like peace, I respect yours, and I would rather have some enriching talk, free of any egotic behaviours. I practiced maieutic for some years, and I always enjoy when people discover something by themselves, or take conscious of something specific, in order to make their life better, or for someone else. If possible, I communicate with people's Soul. Some are sensitive, some less. Some are aware of it, some don't even realize what's happening. Motivations are always some kind of spiritual love. Deeply. But ... ... in the end, may be I don't deserve to be loved ? Or at least not by anybody? Somehow? Hard to explain : Some may first earn "the right to love me". But whatever. I still hope this world becomes a better place for everyone. 🌞