Posted Wednesday, June 17, 2026
26d
INFJ
Aquarius
7My therapist tells me my anxiety is lying to me, and depression is its close friend. She tells me to count five things I can see, four things I can feel, three things I can hear, two things I can smell, and one thing I can taste. But the only thing I can seem to count is all of the reasons I don't wanna be here anymore. You see, anxiety is good with numbers. It counts every small mistake i've ever made. Every moment of awkward silence, ever slight change of tone in conversation. It counts every person who's ever left and convinces me everyone else is already halfway out the door. And depression is its friend. The friend who keeps agreeing with anxiety. Even when anxiety is making things up again. And everyone keeps telling me that it is not real. That it is just my mind playing tricks on me. Just a chemical imbalance. Just distorted thinking. Just imaginary thoughts. But it feels pretty real when my lungs forget how to be lungs. When my throat forgets it was built for breathing. And suddenly I've forgotten how to swallow. My father says it's in my head. He says it's my imagination. But imaginary things are supposed to stay in your head. Imaginary things are monster under beds, ghosts in old houses, and shadows I swear would move across the walls when I was seven. Imaginary things never made my hands shake. Never sat me on bathroom floors trying to remember how to breathe. Never convinced me I was dying on a random tuesday afternoon in the middle of a grocery store. And suddenly, i'm counting again. Five ways I could be dying. Four reasons everyone secretly hates me. Three mistakes I made five years ago. Two people I should have been better to. And one thing I can taste. Fear. Anxiety has always been good with numbers. I just wish it had learned how to count the things worth living for.
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