Just wondering

I have no idea about the religious stuff. But if you wanna go in that angle trusting eve lead us all to hell. It fits. I was tempted by an eve of my own and she released every demon she could and took everything from me including my soul and our offspring. She left me cursed and exhiled

@Bear Im sorry to hear that bro. I went through a divorce a few years back. And I felt hopeless at the time. I had a kid with this woman. And for the longest time, she was using my kid against me. So I can relate to your feelings of betrayal. I hope things are getting better for you. And even though we faced hard times. Hard times dont last. Tough people do. Thanks for responding and have a great weekend

@Eddie the dirt on my knees and the pistol in my hand make me doubt things getting better. For a normally happy person who'd help anyone, I've become dead inside and completely lost any sight. Everything is dark and dieing around me and I want to lay down with the dieing earth

@Bear it will get better. When I went through my divorce. I was getting out of the military at the same time. So being a Marine for the last 6 years. And being married for a few years. When I lost all that I felt like I lost everything. I have PTSD from the military. Which made me alienate everyone around me, including my close family and friends. I was hurting inside back then. But there comes a time when we just got to focus on the things that matter most in life. Things that make us laugh, smile, and fill us with joy. Watching a comedy or a great tv series. Going to go play pool and just take our minds off of the things stressing us out. We are STRONG! And we will not let them win! Because we will not give them the satisfaction! Lets push through and press forward! This is the beginning of the rest of our lives. Lets decide to live life for ourselves and to truly be happy in our lives

The only thing that the loneliness has helped is not having to wear an emotional mask nearly as often.