Recovering from a long period of depression

I guess part of the reason I am here is that I started to actually feel things for the first time in years. I've shut them down for so long and forgot who I was. That meant I felt some scary good feelings. Like desire and a bittersweet loneliness. For the record I am in a relationship with a. Non binary person and poly amorous. Although that's only become clear to me since said reocverybstarted. I realized I was missing something. Just gentle intimacy of a different kind. Some scary not so good stuff. I find myself much less conflict averse. I will argue passionately for things I used to just keep quiet about. Although I still get the jitters after. Have other people found the wave of emotions after depression somewhat scary to deal with?