3rd day of my sober journey❤️‍🩹

I never thought I’d make it to day 3! I know that sounds like nothing to the average person, but I am proud of myself for making it to day 3 and not relapsing and going to get alcohol, or going to a bar in general! I’m just trying to deal with the body aches, headaches, constant pain in general, it’s crazy how the body reacts to something you’ve been dependent on for years, months on end. I have therapy tomorrow, the last time I had a session was in 2025 just before Christmas time, and that session was right after I got completely hammered, definitely didn’t help me heal or process the session at all. Some topics just make me feel worse, but I know I need to feel how I feel, even if it’s bad, scary, or hard. I need to talk, reflect, and process everything before things start to help me heal. Down the inside out. Healing times time after all. My focus is on just getting my mind off the thought of drinking. Keeping my mind busy on other (Healthy) things. I am also trying to eat, drink other fluids that will keep me hydrated. I will be lying if I said I’ve been taking good care of myself, because I haven’t. I had my first shower in 3 days, my hair was so matted that I had to let conditioner stay in it for hours today, I couldn’t even find the strength to eat all day, but after I did shower and put some self-care into myself, I do feel a bit better, enough to make myself some soup. Also, my Mom went out of her when, even though she’s sick and got me a burger, so that helps! Knowing I have people who try to help me take care of myself and eat. I’m trying, and I do give myself credit for that. Ummmm, what else? Oh, I have joined a women’s group, so hoping it will help me not feel so alone and will give me a better place to express, listen to other women like me who have suffered and endured trauma. I also, have also booked creative writing classes for the month to come. I’m really trying to get my mind in a better place. I know it will take time. Ohhhh, I also have made a goal to get back into fitness, and meal prep, I've seen so many recipes I can’t wait to make, try! Cooking is also one of my passions other than writing, so I’m excited to be a chef again in my own home! Cooking for my loved ones fills a void in my heart that I never got to experience as a child, so very grateful I can let my loved ones experience my meals, treats from scratch! Lastly, I just want to say whoever takes the time to read this, I appreciate you, and whatever you're going through in life know you're not alone! It may feel like it sometimes, but you're not alone. Everything in life is never easy, sometimes frustrating, hard to understand, but just know the storm will soon pass, just keep pushing through like me, we can do it from afar together! Just know you're capable, and worthy to get through the rough times, and you will, it just takes patience and some effort and wanting, to see some change, healing❤️‍🩹 With that being said, just know you deserve all the love, peace, comfort, validation, and prosperity! God Bless🙏✨