Jason

Posted Thursday, March 23, 2023

1y

INFP

Aquarius

4

5

Seasons of Quiet Ubiquity

It's funny as I get older, the things I miss become so much more simple and yet, defining. I got smiled at while running an errand the other day, and without fully understanding why, it lit my whole day up. It wasn't until much later I realized that no one had done that in so long that it surprised me. There was a time when I could rely on my wit and intelligence to garner interest and strike up a connection, but it feels like the window of opportunity closes so fast now, and usually with little more than a look. I'm not down on myself or anything, but I'm not as young as I used to be, and the things that move me now are so far removed from the voracious appetite of youth. Kind eyes, a genuine smile, someone to share with and lift up, and to count on to do the same. The world has gone quite mad, and we all need someone, now more than ever. I wish I was better at selling myself, but I fear romance is no longer valued, and dedication seems to hold so much less power than it used to. It's lonely these days. I miss making someone laugh, and telling stories, cooking meals and expressing my appreciation. I have a huge heart, but lately it just feels like an empty room. (edited)