Sky

Posted Saturday, March 25, 2023

1y

ENFP

Sagittarius

6

7

It's Late

I had such a wonderful day today. I went & saw my friends...and we celebrated my friends graduation from Nursing School & we all just had fun kicking it together. It was a bunch of ppl from when we were kids in elementary and then some newer faces. I know I shouldn't be bothered with myself but...I feel disappointed with myself. --- Again I should not feel negatively about how my emotions are moving. Feelings r a normal part of living. --- I just could feel how lonely I was once I got home. I felt so empty after. I mean I'm dealing with a separation and also to add on top one of my guy pals that I also was holding a torch for, he might have also been playing me. {I don't know for a fact but a number of factors seem to lend itself to the idea that he was being dishonest with me} I guess I'm in a vulnerable place in myself and it hurts me to feel myself want to go back to my husband just cuz I want something to hold while I sleep and for some reason that feeling of knowing how lonely I am that I'd consider that in my head, makes me feel so disappointed in my own heart and mind --> I'm being too dramatic or hard on myself.. but I should NEVER go back to that man. He will never be on my side and look out for me. I'm always trying to help ppl....but people pls listen to me when I say that there are so many ppl in the world...if someone isn't able to be consistent with you or open & honest about the important matters, then drop them, they clearly do not value your time the way you value it. I feel both better and hurt. I don't wanna think about the parts that hurt anymore for tonight. I do feel like a different woman. I can see myself more clearly and see how flawed I am too. I can see em c: and that's a good sign of growth.