Veronica

Posted Monday, January 24, 2022

2y

INFP

Leo

5

4

Removing you from my list of what if's

to my almost, until now, i wonder...what our lives could have been if we got there. if we decided to fight every battle along our way while holding each others’ hand. if we had the courage to flip the next page and see if we could stay together until the last one. we weren’t a perfect fit. our differences could outnumber our similarities. you like coffee, i prefer beer. if art is my husband, mathematics is your wife. you’d rather say sorry than get into an argument with me. but i will always stand by my principle even if it meant not talking for days. yet we get each other in a way that only us could understand. it’s as if we had our own language. as if the universe gave us our own little bubble, that only you and i can see. i’m failing miserably in explaining and exhibiting metaphors of how we make sense together, but i know that you know what i am talking about. but we ended before we even started. a soulful song that nobody sung. an adventurous road not taken. we were almost there. only a step away from the starting line. a word away from saying yes. why didn’t we try? why did we let fear hold the steering wheel of our lives? why did we refuse to claim our chance? can’t we try again? i’m done thinking of the what if’s. i’m still here, you’re still here. i don’t want to live the rest of my life wondering what we could have been. you’re not just an opportunity that passed by. if you’re still on that same page that we got scared to flip over, i will meet you there. we may reach the end. we may not. but we won’t know if we won’t try. i don’t want us to be an almost. it’s either we are or we aren’t. - Sinthesizer, “removing you from my list of what if’s"