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Let go...

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And got bored and irritated within 15 minutes. Im not convinced that I made the wrong decision by quitting them. But at least now I know that more than I did this morning when I was questioning. I don't really know what's been going on with me lately except that I've been deep into a cptsd episode for about two solid months and I'm bouncing back and forth between trying to escape reality and facing my emotions. I just wish there was someone I truly trusted here to guide me into what the best decisions are, but all I have in this world right now is myself. I'm glad that I am not like my family, and I'm really grateful I had the courage to flee them, but trying to figure life out on my own gets really freaking hard sometimes. I wish I could just be proud of how far I've come so far, but I'm too busy trying to learn how to go from surviving to thriving.

Tried 3 different games I used to love

I dosadio sam se i iritirao unutar 15 minuta. Nisam uvjeren da sam donio pogrešnu odluku napustivši ih. Ali barem sada znam više nego što sam znao jutros kada sam se pitao. Stvarno ne znam što se događa sa mnom u posljednje vrijeme osim što sam već dva mjeseca duboko u epizodi cptsd-a i skakućem između pokušaja bijega od stvarnosti i suočavanja s emocijama. Samo bih volio da ovdje postoji netko kome stvarno vjerujem da me vodi u tome što su najbolje odluke, ali sve što imam u ovom svijetu trenutno sam ja. Drago mi je da nisam poput svoje obitelji, i stvarno sam zahvalan što sam imao hrabrosti pobjeći od njih, ali pokušati shvatiti život samostalno postaje stvarno prokleto teško ponekad. Volio bih da mogu biti ponosan na to koliko sam daleko stigao do sada, ali previše sam zauzet pokušavajući naučiti kako preći iz preživljavanja u napredovanje.

Pokušao sam 3 različite igre koje sam nekad volio

following a crowd has never been proof of wisdom. sheep do it every day.

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Facts 💯

slijediti masu nikada nije bio dokaz mudrosti. ovce to rade svaki dan.

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Činjenice 💯

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Back to routinity

Povratak rutini

So she used to be a teacher and we had a long talk this morning about my determination to quit video games. She feels strongly that I'm being too hard on myself and that I would benefit from learning the discipline to balance it more. She might have a point. While it's true I don't want video games to take over my life to the point where I lose interest in all my other hobbies, she brought up to me that I'm kind of treating myself like a robot, and davinci who was also a brilliant creative type, would go through phases just like I do where I focus in on one hobby for a few months and then move between them. I think she might be right, I think I might be doing my best to model tough love for myself but since I don't really know what that looks like, I end up being too hard on myself and trying to do things in my best interest but missing the mark sometimes in my attempt to better myself and my life. I really love story driven games, and that's the same for the kind of art I like to make and the books I like to read. If I'm trying to escape reality too much I need to figure out how to address those issues directly instead of just depriving myself of ways that I'm coping with that. I hope I don't regret this decision, I'm a bit like a baby finding my way through the dark right now. Both of my parents are abusive and I'm trying my best to reparent myself with what I think loving myself looks like. I hope I'm doing okay. The people around me seem to think I'm really put together, but I don't know, I often feel lost, like I would really like a road map or something.

My roommate had a talk with me

Dakle, ona je nekada bila učiteljica i jutros smo dugo razgovarali o mojoj odlučnosti da prestanem igrati video igre. Ona snažno smatra da sam previše strog prema sebi i da bih imao koristi od učenja discipline da to bolje izbalansiram. Možda ima pravo. Iako je istina da ne želim da video igre preuzmu moj život do te mjere da izgubim interes za sve svoje druge hobije, spomenula je da se ponašam kao robot, a da je da Vincijeva, koja je također bila briljantna kreativna osoba, prolazila kroz faze baš kao i ja, gdje se fokusiram na jedan hobi nekoliko mjeseci, a zatim prelazim između njih. Mislim da bi mogla biti u pravu, mislim da se možda trudim da modeliram strogu ljubav prema sebi, ali pošto ne znam kako to izgleda, završim previše strog prema sebi i pokušavam raditi stvari u svom najboljem interesu, ali ponekad promašim cilj u svom pokušaju da poboljšam sebe i svoj život. Zaista volim igre vođene pričom, a to je isto i za vrstu umjetnosti koju volim stvarati i knjige koje volim čitati. Ako previše pokušavam pobjeći od stvarnosti, moram smisliti kako da se direktno suočim s tim problemima umjesto da se samo lišavam načina na koje se nosim s tim. Nadam se da neću zažaliti zbog ove odluke, trenutno sam malo kao beba koja pronalazi put kroz mrak. Oboje mojih roditelja su zlostavljači i trudim se najbolje što mogu da se ponovo odgojim s onim što mislim da izgleda kao ljubav prema sebi. Nadam se da mi ide dobro. Ljudi oko mene misle da sam stvarno dobro organiziran, ali ne znam, često se osjećam izgubljeno, kao da bih stvarno volio imati kartu ili nešto slično.

Moj cimer je razgovarao sa mnom

One day I'll be just a memory.
And the best part of my life was being a mother🌿

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Jednog dana ću biti samo uspomena.
A najbolji dio mog života bio je biti majka🌿

Which one will fit me from all names for all classes in our candy land school 
Little Cupcakes 🧁
Tiny Marshmallows ☁️
Happy Donuts 🍩
Sweet Gummies 🍬
Sweet Sprinkles ✨
Cookie Cubs 🍪
Honey Bees 🐝
Sugar Stars ⭐
Lollipop Learners 🍭
Candy Kids 🍬
Gummy Bears 🧸
Jelly Stars 🌟

Which theme with be the best for my Class decorations?

Koja će mi od svih imena za sve razrede u našoj školi slatkiša odgovarati 
Mali kolačići 🧁
Mali marshmallows ☁️
Sretni krofne 🍩
Slatki gumi 🍬
Slatki šareni posipi ✨
Keksići 🍪
Pčelice 🐝
Šećerne zvijezde ⭐
Učenici s lizalicama 🍭
Slatkiši 🍬
Medvjedići 🧸
Žele zvijezde 🌟

Koja tema će biti najbolja za moje ukrase u razredu?

I don’t think I could ever judge someone for crying over something that seems small on the surface. Most tears are not born from a single moment, but from the quiet accumulation of everything a person has carried in silence for far too long. Sometimes, the smallest thing simply becomes the final weight the heart can no longer hold. 

And I think that’s why compassion matters because we rarely know how much sorrow a person has been surviving before it finally spills over.

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Ne mislim da bih ikada mogao suditi nekome tko plače zbog nečega što na površini izgleda malo. Većina suza ne proizlazi iz jednog trenutka, već iz tihe akumulacije svega što je osoba nosila u tišini predugo. Ponekad, najmanja stvar jednostavno postane konačna težina koju srce više ne može podnijeti.

I mislim da je zato suosjećanje važno jer rijetko znamo koliko je tuga osoba preživjela prije nego što konačno prelije.

Remind me of 5 years ago

Podsjeti me na prije 5 godina

Every moment is a once in a lifetime moment...How Will you live this moment..??

Let it flow

Svaki trenutak je jedinstven trenutak u životu...Kako ćeš proživjeti ovaj trenutak..??

Neka teče

You're always with yourself, so you might as well enjoy the company💓

Me time

Uvijek si sa sobom, pa se možeš i uživati u vlastitom društvu💓

Vrijeme za sebe

I hope whoever is going through something gets their way back. Stay strong and make firm principles in your life. Listen to this audio hope it helps I know it's hard but hey! Don't feel alone even the strongest superheroes were alone and it made them wiser and stronger than before💕

This is what you need to hear from me ❤️

Nadam se da će svatko tko prolazi kroz nešto pronaći svoj put natrag. Ostani jak i postavi čvrste principe u svom životu. Poslušaj ovu audio poruku, nadam se da će pomoći, znam da je teško, ali hej! Ne osjećaj se usamljenim, čak su i najjači superheroji bili sami i to ih je učinilo mudrijima i jačima nego prije💕

Ovo je ono što trebaš čuti od mene ❤️

Imagine there's a button

press it and you instantly become the smartest person in the world 

but no one will ever believe anything you say.

would you press it ? why?

just thinkingggg

Zamislite da postoji gumb

pritisnite ga i odmah postanete najpametnija osoba na svijetu

ali nitko nikada neće vjerovati ništa što kažete.

biste li ga pritisnuli? zašto?

samo razmišljamggg

Reminder

Podsjetnik

A person raised in love and another raised in survival will never see the world the same way.

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Osoba odgajana u ljubavi i druga odgajana u preživljavanju nikada neće vidjeti svijet na isti način.

Think very careful about whether the people around you are your circle or your cage.

Pomisli vrlo pažljivo o tome jesu li ljudi oko tebe tvoj krug ili tvoja kavez.

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There's a quiet freedom in no longer treating every misunderstanding like something you have to solve.

Postoji tiha sloboda u tome da više ne tretiraš svako nesporazum kao nešto što moraš riješiti.

Feel like I should go back to trying to learn another language again but not sure. I really struggled when I reached how to say things in French for my gender. It’s easy to say it English as unisex. Just when it’s feminine I struggle but so tempted to try some again <3

Kinda should

Osjećam da bih trebao ponovno pokušati učiti neki drugi jezik, ali nisam siguran. Stvarno sam se mučio kada sam došao do toga kako reći stvari na francuskom za svoj spol. Lako je reći na engleskom kao uniseks. Samo kada je u ženskom rodu se mučim, ali sam jako zaintrigiran da ponovno pokušam <3

Malo bih trebao

Love our parents 💕

Volimo naše roditelje 💕

spoil it all

pokvariti sve

The people who celebrate your wins matter. The people who stay through your losses matter even more.

Ljudi koji slave tvoje pobjede su važni. Ljudi koji ostaju uz tebe kroz tvoje gubitke su još važniji.

driven by confidence authenticity is how you carry yourself rather than physical  appearance.

YOU🫥

vođen samopouzdanjem, autentičnost je način na koji se ponašaš, a ne fizički izgled.

TI🫥

This was really my big dream..A  small house with FERRARI🤧

This was really my big dream..A small simple house with FERRARI 🤧

Ovo je stvarno bio moj veliki san..Mala jednostavna kuća s FERRARIJEM 🤧

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Did you learn something about others or yourself? Picked up a new hobby or new area of interest? Did your behaviour or way of thinking change a bit?

I offer we keep answers lighthearted and fun;)

Have your Boo experience changed you in any way?:)

Jesi li naučio nešto o drugima ili o sebi? Uzeo novi hobi ili novu područje interesa? Je li se tvoje ponašanje ili način razmišljanja malo promijenio?

Predlažem da odgovore zadržimo opuštenima i zabavnima ;)

Je li te tvoje Boo iskustvo na neki način promijenilo? :)

Love my double life:)

Volim svoj dvostruki život:)

What's an information that changed your whole perspective about things in life? 

🤔I figured a lot of people too need to know about those!

Question of the day.

Koja je informacija promijenila cijelu vašu perspektivu o stvarima u životu? 

🤔Mislio sam da puno ljudi također treba znati o tome!

Pitanje dana.

if your peace depends on someone else staying, it was never peace. it was dependency.

ako vaš mir ovisi o tome da netko drugi ostane, to nikada nije bio mir. to je bila ovisnost.

Day at work

Dan na poslu

RSVP; YES✔️ 

CEVICHE &  CHARDONNAY MOOD
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ROMANTICIZING LiFE; YES✔️🤲✨🤏

RSVP; DA✔️ 

CEVICHE &  CHARDONNAY RASPOLOŽENJE
🥂🍾🍽️🍛✨🦋

ROMANTIZIRANJE ŽIVOTA; DA✔️🤲✨🤏

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia is the fear of long words😁

It's tongue-twisting to read

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia je strah od dugih riječi😁

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Pokušao sam 3 različite igre koje sam nekad volio

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