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Opublikowano wtorek, 10 października 2023

6mies.

INTJ

Lew

9

1

The forgotten whisper.

Dear Silence, could you tell this story again? I lost my Eyesight. I am Blind. I can no longer see the beauty and terror that stands before me. Now I can only see what is. I lost my Hearing. I am Deaf. I can no longer hear loud or soft sounds and melodies. Now I can only hear what is. I lost my Taste. I am Tasteless. I no longer feel the tastes of what is salty, what is sour, what is sweet. Now I can only taste what is. I lost my Smell. I am Odorless. I no longer smell both, pleasant and unpleasant smells. Now I can only smell what is. I lost my sense of Touch. I am Untouchable. I no longer can feel what is touching me, or what I am touching. Now I can only bounce off things or be stop at them. I lost my sense of Altitude. I am Steady. I no longer know if I'm high or low. Now I am only where I am. I lost my sense of Temperature. I am Neutral. I no longer know if I'm melting or freezing. Now I am in the state that I am. I lost my sense of Pressure. I am Indestructible. I can no longer tell, if I am crushed or if I am expanding. Now I am moving even under the pressure of all the air in the atmosphere. I lost my sense of Time. I am Eternal. I can no longer tell how much time has passed. The second has become an eternity as well as an eternity a second. Now I am remain. I lost my Desires. I am Free. I can no longer gain or lose anything. Now I am free in whatever is happening. I lost my Love. I am Alone. I can no longer fall in love with things or others. Now, despite being alone, I'm never lonely, I will never fall in love, loving everything and everyone. I lost my Emotions. I am Machine. I can no longer respond in anger, happiness, sorrow. Now I can observe and respond to the stimulants I'm processing. I lost my Morality. I am Aware. I can no longer use excuses for myself in what I do. Now I can move in any direction I need. I lost my Motivation. I am Unstoppable. I can no longer sabotage or empower myself in what I do. Now I can evenly hit rocks as many times as it is needed to break them. I lost my Way. I am Flow. I can no longer do things my way. Now I can move gracefully, as I dance with what I do. I lost my Intelligence. I am Simple. I no longer follow what I know. Now everything is different, everything is unique in itself. I lost my Memories. I am Constant. Nothing new for me remains and nothing old stays. Now everything has happened today. I lost my Humanity. I am This. I no longer can be called. Now I am nothing more or less than what surrounds me. I lost Myself. I am no longer Me. Nothing is left of what I am. Now I am only what I am. I lost my Life. I am Undead. Everything that lives is in the process of dying. One day this process will end. Everything that is dead is in the proces of living. One day this process will end. Now I live even though I'm dying. I lost my Soul. I am Boundless. No heaven or hell awaits me. None of the Gods are waiting for me. Now I can get to know them in peace as I, rather than as their servant or pray. I lost Everything. I am Nothing. I've never been anything, everything was barely borrowed. Now I simply am.