Ex Community

For the point of this post I was engaged once upon a time and it affected me really badly. About 2 years ago my ex and I got together while o thought it was going well since he proposed to me I was living with very toxic people eventually they kicked me out but I continuously visited them and they gave me "advice" on my relationship while at the same time these people told one of their friends that they could date me, again i was engaged at the time. I was in love with my ex well correction I AM in love with my ex, we've been broken up since last February and for some reason I'm still not over them, while I haven't seen them since November and everyone around says I'm better without him I disagree because now I can't trust anyone for example my current boyfriend I like him a lot but I am doing everything in my power not to get attached to him like I was with my ex because I don't want to go through that again, he's also very easily excitable in multiple meanings of the word and it honestly freaks me out a bit because my boyfriend makes me feel like the only reason he's with me is to play out his sexual fantasies while my ex trated me like a person we talked sorta were both really bad at communicating our feeling with each other but that has a lot to do with how we were raised and we were working on that before we broke up I was in therapy and before he left ms I had set up a job interview at the place where I currently work, needless to say I javelin trust issues again, I had gotten past them for a year I was making new friends and doing new things all because my ex asked me too but with recent events I'm starting to regain them, especially with a recent conversation with my boyfriend I was having a normal conversation with him and he was trying to turn it all sexual he called me master and that makes me really uncomfortable it's a trigger word for me, I want him to respect my boundaries but I don't want there to be so much of then that he just ghosts me.