Angel

Posted Friday, December 29, 2023

5mo

INFJ

Leaving behind a year of heartache and sadness.

Well we're just a couple days from 2024 and I hope that next year is a lot better than this year. This was one of the hardest years of my life in a long time. I don't want to get into details but let's say my 20-year-old totally broke my heart I loved her and treatedher like a queen. She faked trying to have kids with me and it all sorts of things to get me back for no reason whatsoever other than to be mean in order to boost their ego not sure how someonecould do that to me. I've been playing/coaching basketball for 7 years out here and I lost my entire team. Hell I lost all my players because people just don't have loyalty anymore but because nobody likes a Gothic basketball player that's better than they are. I found out I need a knee replacement but yet I'm still trucking along but I don't go a moment without pain every single day every single hour. And my son and my granddaughter moved that hurt pretty bad. I'm not even close with my older son I'm too cool of a dad for him therefore his wife and him judge everything I do. I always feel alone in life and I carry a lot of pain and other things this year happen to that have left a sting mark. I don't have a lot of wishes I just want to meet some nice girls I just have a hard time believing that great women exist. Seems like all the balloons end up with those type of girls so my faith is very minimal because I have a hard time believing that good girls actually exist. But I will try to be hopeful and maybe I can start the new year off on a good note. I don't like feeling alone and I've gone through so many other things this year. I carry so much pain 💔 and Carson City is rough meeting girls here is next to impossible and for me romance, companionship and real connections mean something. I am hoping 5hat the upcoming year will bring me joy and happiness. I hope I can also give someone something they can keep and relish. It's hard when you have voids your trying to fill it really is.