Sapphire

Posted Friday, March 29, 2024

29d

INFP

Cancer

6

5

We have a relative who wants to visit our place... I told my uncle and he told me yes they can stay bere they can use your room for awhile....tell them tell me when they arrived at the airport so I can drive them here at our house... he said in a nice tone. Now I'm worried all of my things are here

In my room, my room is my sanctuary... if they let them stay here how am I suppose to move comfortably. I'm in college I need this room to study.... but again this is not my house, this is my uncle's house, I'm just living here for free and I feel hurt because again what about me can't they respect my privacy.. I know that relative will just stay for awhile and that relative also helped us a lot in times of need now I feel selfish... also I can't help but compare when I got here my uncle was mad because I cried before leaving my mom so the ride from airport to his home wasn't great in short my first time living here was me very anxious and trying to survive the first weeks adjusting with my environment... Also in my second day I already helped with house works I was welcomed with lots of plates to wash... I am not complaining because livinv here was free but ofcourse I need to do some task all I can say is I am having a hard time accepting that my life consist of living in someone elses house.... I can't wait to finish college and have my own, but I am greatful with my uncle because he provides everything.. but again family is not perfect and that makes me think twice of having my own family because I don't want to do family related stuffs..... I think I am being selfish... I don't know I just need a form to release what I feel