Gulu la Hurts
Gulu la hurts, kucheza, ndi zokambirana.
177 MIZIMU
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hurts
Kutana ndi Anthu Atsopano
MATSITSIDWE
Gulu la hurts, kucheza, ndi zokambirana.
177 MIZIMU
ZONSE
hurts
Kutana ndi Anthu Atsopano
MATSITSIDWE
Zolemba Zogwirizana
Mukufuna kukhala ndi munthu amene amakuchititsani kuseka mpaka thupi lanu likuvutika, munthu amene amapereka ma hug apamwamba, kapena munthu amene akudziwa popanda kufunikira kufotokoza? Sankhani bwino. Palibe mayankho opanda bwino. π
Ndakhala ndikuyamba manga iyi ya Itono Kei ndipo ndimakonda; ndimakonda momwe zimandikhumudwitsa chifukwa ndi zoona. Ndi chikhumbo cheni cheni... Ndikukumbatira tsopano ndipo ndimakonda mwiniwanga chifukwa cha kuphonya nthawi yambiri chifukwa cha mantha... Tsopano ndakhala wokonzeka.


Ndi chisoni kwambiri pamene chibale chili choonadi chifukwa chimawononga kwambiri pamene chichitike. Pali masiku ndimakumbukira izi ndipo ndiyenera kukumbukira kuti muyenera kuchita kuti mukhale ndi chisangalalo. Pitani patsogolo chifukwa iye wakhala akuchita.
Choncho, ndili mu kalasi, ndine wosamva, pali anthu osachepera 60 kumeneko. Mfundoyi ikufunsa ngati pali abrazilian mu kalasi. Palibe amene akuti chilichonse. Pali 3, mwachitsanzo, kuphatikiza ine. Pali anthu ochokera m'maiko ena... Ndikuchita chithunzi chachikondi kuti ndipereke lingaliro.β¦werengani zambiri
sindikufuna kuphweka munthu kukhala nane ngati mukufuna mukhoza ndipo ndimamukonda ngati simukufuna ine kwenikweni zimandikonda koma inde sindidzapempha kuti mukhale nane mukhoza kupita mosavuta (kusinthidwa)
ndikhope kuti palibe china chingakhalitse mtima wanga ukalira


Pali anthu omwe akupita mu moyo wathu ndipo amatitengera zinthu kukhala zosavuta. Osati chifukwa choti akukonza zonse, koma chifukwa kwa nthawi, moyo umangowoneka kukhala wosavuta. Ndipo nthawi zina amachoka. Osati chifukwa choti sanakonde, koma chifukwa nthawi siyochita bwino. Ndipo mwachitsanzo,β¦werengani zambiri

Tili ndi mantha ndi chinthu china. Kukhala ndi chikhala, imfa, kutayika, kapena kutaya munthu amene timamukonda. Anthu nthawi zambiri amati, βSindingakhale ndi mantha ndi chinthu chilichonse.β Koma ambiri a ife timakumana ndi mantha pamene chinthu chimakhala chofunika kwa ife. Nthawi zina, manthaβ¦werengani zambiri
Sindingafune chikondi chabwino kwambiri.. Sindingafune ubale wabwino kwambiri, Ndikungofuna munthu amene akhudzidwa ndi kutaya ine, munthu amene amawunikira khama langa ndi kumva kukondedwa kukhala naye pansi. Sindingafune zinthu zazikulu kapena nthawi popanda cholakwika. Ndikufuna zinthuβ¦werengani zambiri
Ndakhala ndi chibanga cha septum chotseguka masiku a sabata! Ndinganene kuti ndi chibanga choyenera, inde chimakonda koma chikhala chofunika, ndipo chiri choyenera kuteteza!β¨οΈ

Munthu amakhala ndi ululu wochuluka. Amasintha chipewa chawo. Kenako matiresi awo. Kenako njira yawo ya usiku. Kenako amayesa melatonin, kenako kupumula, kenako ndondomeko yachikhalidwe. Chitukuko chilichonse ndi choyenera. Chinthu chilichonse chimakhudza chinthu cheni cheni. Koma vutoliβ¦werengani zambiri

Kuchotsa ubale kumawononga, koma palibe chomwe chimawononga ngati kudziwa kuti unakhala ndi chizindikiro chilichonse chofooka chifukwa choti unakhulupirira kuti chikondi chimanena kuti kukhala ndi mtima wopirira. Unapitiriza kumvetsetsa, kukhululukira, ndi kupambana nawo, koma pamapeto pakeβ¦werengani zambiri
Pamene munthu amene ndimamukhulupirira andikonda, ubongo wanga suyang'ana nthawi imeneyo yokha. Umalimbikitsa kukumbukira zonse zomwe zili ndi ulalo ndi iwo, kufunsa zomwe zinali zoona ndi zomwe sizinali. Ndipo ndi mbali imeneyi yomwe imandikonda kwambiri. Osati kuchita, koma kutaya mwachangu kwaβ¦werengani zambiri
Khalani ndi chisomo, ndipo muchite bwino ndi chilichonse chiri pamaso panu panoβkapena ndi banja lanu, makolo anu, abale anu, kapena munthu amene mumamukonda.πͺ© Musachite zinthu zomwe mukudziwa kuti mungachite chisoni pambuyo pake. Musangotembenuka tsiku lina, kukhalabe ndi chisoni, ndikufunsaβ¦ (kusinthidwa)werengani zambiri




Kwa ine, kukhala munthu ndi za kukwaniritsidwa. Ndi mphamvu yokhala ndi zinthu zotsutsana nthawi imodzi: nzeru ndi kupusa, kutentha ndi mphamvu, chimwemwe ndi chisoni. Ndi kukhala wotseguka ngakhale ikuvuta. Kukhudzidwa ndi kukongola ndi kukhudzidwa ndi chisokonezo cha ena, kumvetsetsa kuti tiliβ¦werengani zambiri


Sindikufuna kukondedwa ndi munthu amene cholinga chake chachikulu cha moyo ndi kukondedwa ndi ine. Mwina zikuwoneka ngati zolembedwa pa nthawi yoyamba...kukhala dziko lonse la munthu, chifukwa cha munthu wochita kuti akhale ndi chiyembekezo, cholinga chachikulu cha munthu. Koma ndikumva kuti pali⦠(kusinthidwa)werengani zambiri

-Doctor ikuvuta pamene ndichita izi π«© -What chiyani? -Kukhala
Nthawi zina kukhala wokha si nkhani yokhala popanda munthu. Ndi nkhani yokumbukira kuti osati aliyense amawazindikira momwe mumaganizira, zinthu zomwe mumatenga, kapena chisokonezo chiri mβmbuyo mwa kuseka kwanu. Mwina ndakhala ndikugwirizana ndi kukhala munthu amene palibe amene amawazindikira,β¦ (kusinthidwa)werengani zambiri
Chifukwa chiyani ndinachita cholakwika kuti undichotse ngakhale sitikukhala pamodzi? Tingakhale abwenzi. Ndinali wopusa kwambiri komanso pang'ono wopanda nzeru koma zimenezi zinali chifukwa choti iwe unali chinthu choyamba kwa ine ndipo unanditengera kukhala mkazi wokondwa kwambiri. Ndinaganizaβ¦werengani zambiri

Ndikudziwitsa chiyani chikondi chachokwadi, ndi kupitilira mawu ndi malingaliro. Chidzakhala pamaso panu, koma simungakwanitse kuchikopa. Chingathe kutenga mawonekedwe a chimanga kwa ena, ndipo chikanga ngati wina akuvutitsa wokondedwa. Sichimayankha, kapena kukumbira kuti ikhale, imakonda muβ¦werengani zambiri
...Ndinangotumizidwa kuti ndine wovuta kufunafuna chifukwa choti ndinawauza momwe ndikuvutika...kuti ndili ngati sindikuyenera kuyesedwa kuti ndidziwike... ...Ndinangotumizidwa kuti ndisatumikire za momwe ndikukhala... Sindingakhale ndi munthu woti ndiwauze momwe ndikuvutika...chifukwa chiyaniβ¦werengani zambiri
Nthawi zonse pamene Khrisimasi ikukwera, zimandivuta kwambiri. Ndikuwakumbukira. Ndikuwakumbukira Khrisimasi zomwe tinakhala nazoβ¦ nyengo yachilimwe, koma kutentha komwe tinamva tikakhala pamodzi. Khrisimasi sichikhalabe chimodzimodzi kwa zaka zambiri tsopano. Ngati ndingathe kukhumba chinthuβ¦werengani zambiri
Anaberekeredwa ngati maluwa, koma dziko linayika ma thorns pansi pa mapetala ake. Ankakonda buluuβ kuphatikiza kuti munthu anali kumuwonera kuti akhale wosangalatsa. Anasokoneza maso ake ndi chikondi, osadziwa kuti anali chithunzi chake chabe. Anamva ma thorns ake, anabala, ndipo anachitira mlanduβ¦werengani zambiri
Anthuwa akuwonetsa ndi kupereka umboni kuti sindidzakhala wokwanira kuti ndikhale wokondedwa ndi mkazi komanso kupanga abwenzi dziko lili ndi chinyengo komanso chitsanzo choyipa ndakhala ndikuphonya kuchuluka kwa nthawi yomwe anthuwa andijudze pamene ndidapita ndi anthu akuwonetsa kuti akupitaβ¦werengani zambiri
Anthuwa angaganize kuti unali galu chabe, koma unali osati βgalu chabeβ kwa ine. Unali mβbanja langa, chitsimikizo changa, komanso chimodzi mwa zifukwa zazikulu zomwe ndinapitiriza kupita patsogolo pamene moyo unali wovuta. Ndidzakhala nthawi zonse kuti palibe kanthu komwe kungandichititse kutiβ¦werengani zambiri





Nthawi zambiri pamene tikukumana ndi mtima wosweka ndikufunsa chifukwa chake zimawononga, ndinapeza yankho lokuti timasowa ndi kulira momwe wina amatitengera. Choncho kodi sikuti timafuna ena okha omwe angatipangitse kumva chisangalalo ndi chikondi, zomwe zimapangitsa kuti tikhale okonda okha,β¦werengani zambiri
Gawo lolimbika kwambiri la chikondi sili pakupanga kuti wina akhale, koma kukonda wina pomwe akuphunzira kukonda wina. Mukuyenda ndi dzina lawo m'malo osalala a mtima wanu, mukukumbukira zinthu zazing'ono, mukufuna chimwemwe chawo ngakhale chimwemwe chawo sichikuphatikizidwa ndi inu. Ndipo mwinaβ¦werengani zambiri
Moyo umakhala wovuta, chilengedwe chimathetsa.




Anthu akulimbikitsa kuti mwamuna akuyenera kulila. Yankho langa ndi losavuta: inde. Mwamuna amene angalile si wopanda mphamvu. Ali ndi moyo mu maganizo. Lingaliro lakale lokuti ubwenzi limatanthauza kuletsa chisoni chilichonse lakhala likuchititsa zovuta zambiri kuposa zabwino. Lakhalaβ¦werengani zambiri

Anamangidwa mapiko ake. Anaphunzira luso la kupita kumwamba. Ndipo anapita pamwamba ndi kupita kwa aliyense amene akufuna kumusunga pansi. Zimakonda chifukwa mukumupatsa chikhala chachikulu. :β ββ X (kusinthidwa)
Chinthu chachikulu chomwe chimakhumudwitsa: kukhala wopusa, kapena kudziwa kuti unakhulupirira ulemu kwa nthawi yayitali?
Sindikhoza kulola chifukwa chikhala changa chikundikonda kwambiri π
Sindikukhulupirira kuti ex wanga anandiphwanya mwachisawawa ndipo anandikakamiza kuti ndife. Sindinayenera kumupatsa mwayi, chifukwa chake zili zovuta kukhulupirira anthu masiku ano.
Izi ndi za kukhulupirira nokha ndi kumvetsetsa mtengo wako mu chikondiπ©· Zimatikhumbutsa kuti chikondi chachikulu sichingakhale chofunika mawu, ndi za zochita. Ngati munthu akukukhulupirira, adzachita nthawi ya iwe, popanda kutengera momwe moyo ukuchitira. Maudindo ndi osavuta; khama ndi kopanda.β¦ (kusinthidwa)werengani zambiri
Kusokoneza, Kutentha, kupweteka. Ngati ndi choncho, ndingakonde kuphimbidwa. Koma palibe amene angandiphe π©π©
Chaka 18 mu ubale. Ndakhala ndikuvomereza zambiri chifukwa cha zomwe ndinkaganiza kuti ndi chikondi ndi ubale. Kuthamanga ndi kuthamanga, kuwononga pambuyo pa kuwononga. Ubale umatha koma akupitiliza kuwononga kapena kupita mwachindunji m'njira zoti andikonde. Ndikufuna kudziwa kuti si mwangoziβ¦werengani zambiri



Ngati kukhumudwitsa ine sikukhumudwitsa iwe, potero usandiuze kuti umandikonda. π€π―
Mukayamba kulumikizana ndi munthu wina M'maonekedwe mwachangu mumakumbukira zomwe zinachitika nthawi yomaliza mukachita izi
Choncho munthu wina anandiwuza kuti chikhalidwe changa ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu opanda chiyembekezo, ndi chinthu chofunika kwambiri choti ndithe kulankhula za chikhalidwe cha munthuπ‘π
Ndimakonda kwambiri.


Ndiye ndinaganiza kuti sindidzakonda munthu... chifukwa chiyani ndinasiya:( mungasinthe malingaliro anu ngati ndingakupempheni kuti mukhale...
Ndikufuna kukhala ndi chithunzi chabwino cha ine mu mutu wa munthu komanso ndimapempha kuti ndikhale ndi chithunzi chabwino cha munthu amene anali ndi tanthauzo lalikulu kwa ine mu mutu mwanga koma nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ndi kuvutika pamene..... Sindikudziwa momwe ndingatsatire mafeelings angaβ¦werengani zambiri
Ndi nthawi zina, mu kukhalapo kwa usiku, ndimapemphera ngati tikuyang'ana mwezi wofanana ukuchita kuseka m'denga ndi nyenyezi kapena ngati ukana kuvomereza ubwino wawo...


Kodi muli ndi malangizo angati pa momwe mungachitire kuti mukonzenso mafuta omwe anachititsa moto?

Chifukwa chiyani kumva kupweteka kudziwa kuti muk still love munthu uyu koma mukuyesera kupita patsogolo koma simukufuna? Ndikumva ngati ndikufuna kulira koma sindingathe.
-Ndakhala munthu amene ndinayamba kuchita chisoni, koma ndili ndi chimwemwe. π

Chiphunzitso chachikulu choti muphunzire ndi chikondi ndi kukhala ndi chikondi choti chibwezeredwe.