Ret

Posted Tuesday, June 6, 2023

10mo

ESFP

Capricorn

2

1

Positive (+) (I wonder what the character limit is?🤔)

Positive(+) It's hard to say you want to change And then expect to do so in in a day You see it in movies and shows You hear stories and ghosts. "I felt that day I changed. The accumulation of all of my doubts had been quelled. I wanted to put in an effort, a take a chance to be well." You wanna put your best foot forward, left ones first for me, my right side has been hurt too much you see. Making my own choices and pedaling back, I never had good balance, so it was a bad act. Facts aside, I had always been afraid to be alive, afraid to bring a light in my life. What if we're to thrive? Isn't that what I wanted, isn't that what everyone wants? We all say we are happy but how many of us are putting up fronts? I've broken my mirrors from being disgusted by who I see. I live in fear of, the love of success, or who I could be, it makes me a mess who can't put out his best on time, or in time at all. Procrastination is a resident in my walls. But I want to be better, I want to be the best. I'm scared of the storm that is coming from a front that's built up over time! It may be a harrowing experience but it will be mine. I have always been unsure of the things that I could do, I told myself the same lies, everyone said, "it's the truth." With that hit to confidence, I ran from local prominence, digging graves, for days of grave mistakes, in ways I couldn't take, I'd plea for breaks but miss the stakes, to get put back in my place. I felt irrelevant. But I was the tag along. The one who pretended to be strong and steady, but instead, nervous, unready. I don't want that anymore. That's what I expect from my storm. Wailing winds of anxious doubt, thunderous backlash from blackened clouds, hail the size of the mistakes I have made, even a powerful and encompassing rain. I want to brave this storm. To see if can, I won't give up. I'll hold my stand, this is my hill to die on. Not anyone else, but I'm not opposed to a little help.. (edited)