Myles

Posted Sunday, May 12, 2024

22d

ENFJ

Taurus

4

5

A little too heavy

I feel things a little too heavily, I wish my thoughts were a little more heavenly. This rollercoaster I've been a passenger on, has been nothing but turbulence since day one. I want to feel the earth beneath my feet and stay grounded, however the only responses I ever receive are hounded. I want to love and be loved is all I ask, most days I feel like I just have to mask. I don't want to feel things to this intensity, the weight of it all is one word, density. My shoulders aren't big enough to carry it all, one of these days I'm sure I'll fall. Be patient and kind with me, for I can love you to the depths of the sea. I only have one favor and I don't think it's too much, to be gentle with my soul being that it is fragile to the touch. Somedays I feel like everything is too much, then I look around at the things I have been given and such. I have given them life, but they were taken from me all due to strife. They are the biggest reason I continue to hold on, for one day I pray a reunification will come. So for now I can only love them at a distance, as I will hold onto them in this lifetime and the next for a insatnce. So for now I can only wish them well, hoping one day they will break out of this spell. For our children are the future, parents hearts aren't ment to be sutured. The pieces of me that lay shattered on the floor, will continue to be there another day more. Children are not your weapons to use, for it's not just one heart that feels abused. Three hearts have sustained major damage, and another day this pain too shall we manage. As I count my blessings and close my eyes, I hope you'll be waiting for me before my untimely demise. I see their faces and hear their voices everywhere I go, this pain parents like me feel we should never know. -MK (edited)