Umphakathi we-Desperate
Umphakathi we-desperate, ingxoxo, nokudingida.
28 IMIMOYA
KONKE
desperate
Hlangana Nabantu Abasha
OKULANDAYO
Umphakathi we-desperate, ingxoxo, nokudingida.
28 IMIMOYA
KONKE
desperate
Hlangana Nabantu Abasha
OKULANDAYO
Tbh,,, angikhumbuli kahle ukuthi ukushelela emlonyeni womuntu kunambitha kanjani 😔😫 #single #desperate
Ngicabange ukuthi ngizokwazi. Kodwa angikwazi. Le ndlala iyangcwatsha. Futhi lokhu akukwazi ukuba njalo.
#udinga kakhulu 😭

Angazi ukuthi kungani kodwa ngifuna ukuxoxa nomuntu
Ngemuva kobudlelwano bami obuneminyaka eyisishiyagalombili nomngani wami owayengumfana, ngaba nesizungu nokungathembeki, angikwazanga ukuthola uthando olusha njengalolo esaluthandana, ngiyakhumbula lezo zinsuku, Ngiyaphazamiseka futhi ngiyaphazamiseka manje futhi ngiyazizwa nginesizungu,…funda kabanzi
Ngidinga nje owesifazane engingamphatha eduze futhi ngimnike uthando. Angiceli ubudlelwano bokwenyani ngisho, ngidinga nje ukujabulisa. Ngiphume ebudlelwaneni obuphelile obuneminyaka engu-2.5 ngoba umngani wami wayefuna ukuzithola nje ngaphandle kokulindela futhi wanquma ukuhamba futhi wahamba…( kulungiswe )funda kabanzi
Sekuphele iminyaka emibili.
Okuthunyelwe Okuhlobene
Ngikhumbula kakhulu ulwandle njengamanje. Ngilidinga kakhulu iholide..

ngiyabonga guys, kungcono ukuba single futhi uhlale ukhetha ngoba lokho okufunayo kukhona! ungavumi okuncane, futhi phinde unikeze omunye ongowakho ithuba ngoba uthuthukisa ukuzethemba kwabo, bazokwenza okubi kuwe. (ngiyavuma, ngake nganciphisa izinga lami futhi pppfffftttt akukwazanga) HLALANI…funda kabanzi
Umphefumulo wami ulele undikindiki, useseqhweni sobusuku Ngithuthumela, ngithandazela ukufudumala, ngikhumbula inkumbulo esifiphele Ikhandlela lilele liyisigaxa esiqinile phansi, intambo yalo isishile yaba mnyama futhi yaba mfushane Engikudingayo nje yinhlansi, engikudingayo nje... nguwe, futhi…funda kabanzi

Ngicabanga nje, uma sonke sikhuluma ngodlame, kungani kuthatha isikhathi eside ukuze sikwazi ukukhuluma nomuntu. Ngiyazi ukuthi abantu bangahluka ngezidingo nezilindelo. Ngenxa yesizathu esithile, ukusebenzisa izinhlelo zokusebenza zokuthandana (kuze kube sekukhulumeni nomuntu) kubonakala kukhulu…funda kabanzi
Bengilokhu ngithanda kakhulu izindaba ezinezindikimba ezisondelene nokwesabekayo, futhi ngingadla ngempela isicathulo ukuze ngithole umuntu engingafunda naye futhi sixoxe kakhulu. Akudingeki nokuthi kube yincwadi noma uhlobo olufanayo, njengoba sengibonile ukuthi ngidinga ukwandisa umkhakha wami…( kulungiswe )funda kabanzi

Kungani i-“Medicine” ye-BMTH (i-Vevo Live Performance) iyimanifesto yami yomuntu siqu, ye-neurobiology 🧠💔 Kukhona ubusuku lapho ngivala khona amehlo, ngifake ama-headphone, bese ngivumela umculo ube sengathi uyiskena se-MRI somqondo wami. Sengiyibuke amakhulu ezikhathi i-Vevo Live Performance…funda kabanzi
Ngikholelwa ukuthi uma umuntu ejabule ngokuba nobudlelwano besikhashana noma obungajwayelekile, kubalulekile ukuthi uqaphele kahle ukuthi ubani ofuna ukukhuluma naye. Uma umuntu ofuna ukuhlangana naye enezimvo ezihlukile mayelana nobudlelwano noma ukufuna, shiya phansi. Uzokwakha isipiliyoni esibi…funda kabanzi

Hhayi abafuna ukunakwa noma abantu abaphelelwe yithemba.. Bengingaxoxa ngenguqulo yami yendaba ethile ku-#dating tag kodwa ngeke ngikwenze. Bengingavele ngidlale umdlalo kodwa kuyaqondakala ukuthi kungani abantu bebodwa. Okwamanje, kulabo abebezibuza, ngiqale ukubuka kabusha i-Heroes. Kubuhlungu…funda kabanzi


Ngineminyaka engu-23 ubudala futhi ngihlangana nabantu abaneminyaka efanayo kodwa ngiqale ukuqaphela ukuthi uma owesifazane eshade kakhulu, uba muhle ngokomzimba, ngicabanga ukuthi kungenxa yokuthi abesifazane abancane bahlukumezeka futhi bahlanzekile futhi ngithanda kuphela abesifazane…funda kabanzi
Ngidinga kakhulu i-anime yokubuka ukuze ngigcine ngisebenza ngesikhathi sami sokuphumula kuze kube i-WoWF ikhishwa. Izigaba engizithandayo ngokuvamile ziyi-fantasy/adventure, kodwa ngivulekile kokuningi.( kulungiswe )
Ngithole indiza yokubuyela ekhaya ngedwa ngeSonto. Ngidinga iziphakamiso zamafilimu, imibukiso ye-tv noma ama-anime ukuze ngidlule kahle esikhumulweni sezindiza nasendizeni
Wonke umuntu ukhuluma ngomuzwa we-blink-182. Abanye bezwa i-My Chemical Romance. Ngibone abantu beyihlanganisa naleyo ndawo ejwayelekile ye-pop-punk / emo / alternative rock. Bese kuba khona i-The Grey. Konke lokho kuqhathanisa kunengqondo kimi. Kodwa ngemva kokuthi ekugcineni ngizwe ingxenye…funda kabanzi
Ngikade ngingakaze ngibe nobudlelwano impilo yami yonke, futhi ngizizwa sengathi abangane bami nomndeni baphuthuma kakhulu ukuze ngithole othile kunalokho engizokwenza. Kungenzeka ngiphutha, kodwa ngicabanga ukuthi kunzima ukuhlela uthando nenkululeko futhi ngizizwa sengathi angikakulungeli ukusho…funda kabanzi
(isandulela side edlula lokhu, kodwa kunomkhawulo lapha) UHelios wavuka ngaphambi kokuphuma kwelanga, igumbi lisemnyameni. Wahlala embhedeni, elalele. Ngokuvamile, ngalesi sikhathi, wayezwa umsindo ojwayelekile wokukhuhla kukayise itshe lokugaya, izicathulo zakhe zidlula phansi ziya ebhasini…funda kabanzi
Ngithole lo myalezo ophuma kulomuntu "owesilisa" othe ngiyakhanga futhi ufuna ukungazi kahle. Uthe ngithumele imiyalezo ngoba anginayo imali. Ngiyithumele. Into yokuqala ayishilo ukuthi "Ngibe ngedwa unyaka wonke futhi sengikhathele. Ngifuna ubudlelwano obuqinile, ngifuna izingane nomndeni",…funda kabanzi
Uyazi, ungaphezu kokuhle. Akunamali, akukwazi ukufaniswa, futhi konke engikufunayo ukukhuthaza yikhona okukhazimulayo kwabesifazane ngaphandle kokukhanga noma ukucabanga. Uthando lukhululekile, kulula, mhlawumbe inselelo enkulu yomoya ukubheka emehlweni owesifazane nokukhuluma nenhliziyo yakhe…funda kabanzi
Ngifisa kakhulu ingxoxo evusa ingqondo.. ukhona? 🤣

Uhulumeni uqhubeka nokuphikisa ukuba nedola eliphansi. I-America inenkinga yokufaneleka....amakhono aphansi, ukukhokha okuphezulu, akukho ukukhula kwemiholo. Ukuqoqwa kwempahla kuza ngokushesha, hhayi ngokuhamba kancane futhi ngisho nabatshalizimali/abadayisi abanolwazi abaqhuba idatha yabo…funda kabanzi
Abakhwabanisi sebegcwele yonke indawo kunanini ngaphambili. Umkhonyovu uvame ukuhamba kanje: uthola ucingo olukutshela ukuthi ubathole ku-WhatsApp. Bese bekubuza imibuzo embalwa, bakutshele ukuthi “uzozuza” malini bese bekunika imisebenzi ehlukahlukene. Bese bekufaka eqenjini le-Telegram noma…funda kabanzi





Sanibonani, lokhu kufana kakhulu nalokho engibhekene nakho. Njengamanje ngenza izifundo ze-bachelor eJalimane, futhi uma ngikhuluma iqiniso ngizizwa nginqanyuliwe kakhulu kwabanye abantu, sengathi angazi ukuthi ngingabiza bani ngomngane nokuthi ngingakha kanjani ubudlelwano obuqotho. Ngike ngaya…funda kabanzi
( ngibhale lokhu ngesikhathi sokukhulelwa) Nansi ngikhala ngothando olunye Njenge drake, ngabe ngiyisifebe senhliziyo? Isifebe sokubamba, Isifebe sokubamba izandla Nokuhlangana? Mhlawumbe Yisikhathi sokushisa kwothando Izinsuku zibhakabhaka Umphefumulo nomphefumulo Ukushisa nokushisa Iso…( kulungiswe )funda kabanzi


Igama: T-rex-savage noma u-rex nje ngamafuphi Iminyaka:23 Ubulili: owesilisa Ngi-bi Indoda eyi-masc futhi ngiyi-top Indawo: las vegas Ubude: 5,4 Usuku lokuzalwa: Juni 5 Engikuthandayo: Ngidlala imidlalo ku-PS5, ngiyisigqila se-anime, ngithanda i-gundam, nginamathathu, ngihlala…funda kabanzi
Ngokuvamile lapho ngikhululekile ngibuza imibuzo mayelana nalokho engikwenza ukuze ngijabule nokuthi ukuphila kanjani ukuba ngedwa. Kulungile, kuthule, kuthokozisa, kwesinye isikhathi kuncane kakhulu kumuntu osephila impilo yakhe yonke engashadile, kuyajabulisa ngendlela yokuthi ngiqoqa izinto…funda kabanzi

Ngiyaphambana maduzane, izimali zami ezincane ziphume ngenxa yokubomvu, ngiyaphoxeka impela hahaha( kulungiswe )

Ukuba kuhlelo lokuhlangana akusho ukuthi othile udinga ukunakwa ngokweqile. Uma ingxoxo yakho yokuqala iqala ngemibuzo engafanele noma eyocansi, lokho kukhombisa konke okudingayo ukukwazi. Sihamba lapha ukuze sihlangane nabantu, sibe nengxoxo eziyiqiniso, futhi sibone ukuthi izinto ziya kuphi…funda kabanzi
Ngabe kukhona ofuna ukungazi? lol kubukeka kuyaphuthuma ngiyazi. Kodwa ngizizwa sengathi abangane abane abanele. Ngidinga umngane omusha! Uthanda i-hot chocolate? I-badminton? Ukuthenga? Uthanda i-anime? Unenhliziyo enhle? Ake sikhulume ngakho! Elder emo? Elder prep? Ake sikhulume!
Ngishaya ikhanda lami odongeni lapha. Ngithathe ukufunda ukupenda kwekholeji ngenhloso yokuzijabulisa KUTHINI UMEAN ukuthi bekufanele ngikwenze kokubili ezinsukwini ezimbili. Ngabe ngiyaphoxeka ngokwanele ukuze ngisebenzise ama-acrylics kulokhu kokuqala futhi ngiyakuthanda. Ngizizwa sengathi…funda kabanzi


Ngokuhlanganyela, ngithole abantu abaningi abavela kwamanye amazwe. Ngakho manje ngiyathanda ukubuza wonke umuntu lapha — ingabe ungathandana nalolo hlobo lobudlelwano obude? Ingabe lokho kukuhle kuwe? Ingabe sonke sikhungathekile ngento ethile okwenza sibe nekhono lokufuna okukhona kude kangaka?
Ngiyaxolisa ngokulangazelela kangaka ukuzwa okuthile, noma yini nje, ngaze ngahluleka ukukulinda. Angizange ngenze umsebenzi wokuba yinguqulo yami engcono kakhulu ngenxa yakho. Angizange ngimele thina nempilo esasifanele ukuyiphila ndawonye. Ngazanelisa ngokuncane, ngavuma ukuyekethisa, ngaba…funda kabanzi
Ngithathe lokhu ebusika, ngiyafisa kakhulu ukuthi uSepthemba aqale ukwenza lokhu futhi


Njengomuntu, akufanele ube nenkinga yokwenza isinyathelo sokuqala... Ikakhulukazi ku-app yokuhlangana... Le ngxenye ilula. Kodwa lokho akusho ukuthi kufanele ulandele futhi ugijime njengomfana ophoqelelwe ofuna ukunakwa. Ungabi yindoda eqhubeka nokupha konke kuyilapho ithola okuncane kakhulu…( kulungiswe )funda kabanzi