William

Posted Saturday, April 13, 2024

17d

INFJ

Scorpio

A dream... or was it?

When I was around 10 or 12 years old, before I had ever kissed a girl or at least remembered kissing a girl, I had a short dream one night that I'll never forget. My entire life until college I was homeschooled, the exception being kindergarten and then the next year second grade at two different schools. I remember in kindergarten having two girlfriends at the same time that were twin sisters 😏 but I don't know what we did, maybe sat under the jungle gym during recess and talked. Second grade I had two girlfriends again (but at different times and from different families this time), one was named Ashley and one was named Erica. We'd sit between the roots in the big oak tree out near the playground during recess and talk but again I don't remember any kissing. With an understanding of that history we return to my bed one night as I'm sleeping and a dream makes its way through. I'm in bed and it's dark. There's a woman laying next to me facing away from me and I feel I like her and I feel comfortable. That's a noteworthy point since feeling comfortable was as familiar for me at that point as kissing a girl. While laying on my back, I roll over a little bit to my left where she is, lean over to her and roll her towards me with her shoulder. She immediately starts protesting but not in a forceful or serious way, she just sounds kind of tired or frustrated but being dramatic about it on purpose, and I feel like I know it's her thing. I look down at her. She's a brunette, not familiar to my waking mind but in the dream she was mine. She's pretty. It's dark and the details are hard to make out but she is definitely pretty. I tell her "I just want a kiss." 🙂 I'm happy too, chuckling at her disgruntled looking face. Comfortable AND happy? Obviously a dream hahaha She makes a relenting noise and stretches her neck up to me as I bring my face down to hers and kiss her. It was the best feeling I could have ever imagined. At that point anyway...there are better ones but the mouth is still involved, interestingly enough. It feels like fireworks going off but in my mouth and sexual hot, not fire hot. It's all the adjectives and superlatives and none of them because they all fall so short that it's almost disrespectful to use them. Whole dream lasted 10-20 seconds but during it was so vivid it felt so real, not like normal dreams at all. I've only had a few like this, that I remember at least. I always had this weird feeling that I would meet her one day, because of how striking and vivid that dream was and how real the kiss I imagined was, it was exactly like the real thing. Which I finally experienced for the first time at 17 years old, not at the wedding I met my first girlfriend at where she tried to kiss me when we hugged goodbye. Where I realized at the last second and just stuck with the hug, then wasn't able to help myself from addressing what had just happened and told her "I'm saving my first kiss for someone special. 🙂" LMAO Ended up finally finally kissing her around 6 months later when I drove to Georgia for the first time to see her. I know dreams can be more than just dreams, I've read so many stories about people getting real information in dreams, sometimes critical or pivotal information that drastically influences the entire world once it's utilized, sometimes information about long-dead people that can actually be verified by the living etc etc. I still wonder if mine will show up IRL but even if it doesn't it's okay, my life is blessed and while I don't have a good match as a partner yet, I have no room to complain about my chances or opportunities. Thanks for reading. (edited)