Steven

Posted Sunday, April 28, 2024

1mo

ENFP

Taurus

2

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Turmoil

Darkness shrouds me as I ponder Difficult past decisions and choices Am I really the coward ? Yessss comes the hisses From the demons of my mind The devil is on both my shoulders he sits between them in my head Wanting me to curse God like Job Guilt is gnawing on my heart It hungers for my downfall My heart pumps with no direction The map is in tatters and home Is nowhere in sight Home used to be a pair of blue eyes But then I had to lock myself out Otherwise I’d surely kill us both Yet Regret doesn’t see it that way I feel the scales tipping back n forth Innocent Guilty Innocent Guilty INNOCENT GUILTY TRUTHTELLER LIAR BRAVE COWARD I feel my soul split Then come back together My blood runs hot like oil Oil that’s eating away at my peace Tears leave my eyes Running them dry And yet I lift up my heavy head I clasp scarred hands together And pray Forgiveness comes out She pats my head and blows A cool breeze over me My blood cools Forgive Her to let go Redemption kisses my hands My scars scab over You are not defined by those Self love washes over me Guilt and Regret stop their assault You did what was right for you But what about what was right for … … … Her? The demons whisper mockingly COWARD COWARD COWARD Self Love, Redemption, Forgiveness Surround me in a comforting embrace NO NOT A COWARD YOU TRIED YOUR BEST DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF And finally I felt the demonic whispers Fall quiet like rain I feel the warmth of light As God has again brought the sun Out to greet me I can still feel Regret and Guilt Scheming with the demons But I don’t pay them no mind They can try all they want But I will never let them take me My Map is still in tatters That’s okay I’ll make my own way More hard decisions and choices Are ahead but instead of fearing The turmoil I face it with open arms Cause having turmoil shows me How brave you need to be in order To remember to still care Even when others say you shouldn’t How brave you need to be to Still show compassion Even when it may seem undeserved To still love Even when it seems… Impossible