(Attention it is really long complaining from the heart!!!) How can I make a piece in my mind and heart, if this happened: I was born in Czech Republic, but my parents flew from the USSR and I was raised with this in mind, parents teacher me russian language and it is just part of me and is something really close to me, because I always felt piece and calmness in it and near people who talked russian... I felt like an outsider in Czech Republic and the Czech language isn't as close to me as Russian, even if I was born as Czech. And now because of the happening I really hate this part inside of me, even if I have roots in Ukraine, but I don't really know Ukranian language and the place where I wanted to go no longer exists and people I wanted to see too my grandmother and grandfather died in Mariupol... this whole situation is really close to my personal life and views, because I really felt attracted to russian, belorussian and ukranian girls, but now it is only limited by ukranian and even I have to learn another language to speak with them, because they mostly don't want to talk russian and It is hard for me to express myself and being open even in three languages I am comfortable with to talk which are russian, Czech and English. I am introverted and it is really hard for me to be open and to meet new people, because my hobies are mostly one person including and I met 3 girls I really liked from Ukraine for the last year and it was one heartbreak after another, because they are now too affected by the war, but I am not as much, because all my relatives from Ukraine are dead or in other countries and don't really want to be communicative, so we share only the most important information together. So how can I make piece in my heart and mind if all the time, when I meet new people I need to explain, why I don't speak Ukranian even If I have ukranian roots, because if I am telling them, that I am Czech they don't really believe me, or I just feel like this. I feel guilty, because whole life I felt related to russia because of russian language and friends in my childhood who were mostly fom russia. I feel exhausted by all those feelings. I am not really affected by all the happening, but same time I feel like I am affected more then many Ukranians I meet, because of the reasons mentioned above. I feel like my problems are nothing compare to ukranians, but I have problems too and I feel like there are nobody to listen to me, or to hug me, really being interested in me, instead of my support and help, cause I am Czech so I can help them with everything, but if I don't they are not interested in talking to me anymore... (edited)