Ck

Posted Tuesday, May 21, 2024

25d

ISFJ

Gemini

This is causing me depression

So if you've read my profile, you will see that I have a 6-year-old daughter who is special needs. She was born with fetal alcohol syndrome and is also borderline autistic. It has been years since I've been in a relationship with anyone. I have had a couple of short-term relationships in the last 4 years but they ultimately didn't work out because they couldn't deal with my daughter's condition. They also couldn't understand just how much time and care she requires. I have to have her on a very strict schedule. Also, because of her condition it makes it very difficult for me to drop what I'm doing during the week and get together with someone such as going on a date. Most people don't understand that during the week I have to focus on my daughter and her schedule. If there is any part of her schedule that gets thrown off, she is completely off balance. I've been told that this is because of the autism part. I'm not saying that I can't get together with someone. What I am saying is that I can't get together during the week on a whim. Especially if it's in the evening. I am very very limited on who can actually watch her while I go out. So it takes careful planning and consideration. And just so everybody knows, no her mom is not in the picture in any way so I cannot depend on her for anything. Now to the point of this post... As I said, it's been years since I've been in any real tangible relationship. Everyday I come home from work to an empty apartment. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that my daughter doesn't live with me because she does. I have 100% physical and legal custody of my daughter. When I say I come home to an empty apartment, I'm saying there is no other adult here. There is nobody I can have an adult conversation with. With my daughter only being 6 years old and with her condition and the fact that she cannot verbalize most things that are wrong or what's on her mind, I can't really have a full length conversation with her. I do love her to death but I just wish there was somebody else here.