Missing my CodeBuddy

Little reference before starting out, I am a software developer by profession. So last year me and her met in a coding bootcamp she was a fresh graduate and I had an year of exp at that time. To get placed in some good product based company I joined this bootcamp..quickly we became friends we use to solve problems on leetcode till latenight..discussing different approaches and then we took it to another level and got into a relationship. We both got placed in same city at thrice of our previous packages. Fast forward today, I am again looking forward to switch to a better position and again back on leetcode after 1 year but she is no more with me. I was at fault. I cheated and I feel guilty. Not I have just lost a good girl, I have lost a good friend. I never had wrong intentions but somehow I could not tell her. I dont want a relationship and all I just want my codebuddy back.😭