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Personal

personal

Any at all.

Sakumaha waé.

Every Tuesday is fire department meeting and we are testing our fire hose

Fire department night

Saban Salasa nyaéta rapat dinas pemadam kebakaran sareng kami nuju nguji selang kebakaran kami

Malam dinas pemadam kebakaran

Hi who's bored here? wanna talk?

Hai saha anu bosen di dieu? hayang ngobrol?

This year, I been trying to focus on my health. Trying to get my health together so that I can be the healthiest I’ve ever been. I’m currently working with doctors and It’s still a work in progress but, I’m going to always continue to fight the good fight. Not only for me but for my wife, my mother, my family and my friends that I love and care about. I believe in god and I believe in me.

Opening up to everyone

Taun ieu, kuring parantos nyobian pikeun fokus kana kaséhatan kuring. Nyoba pikeun ngatur kaséhatan kuring supados kuring tiasa janten anu paling séhat anu kantos aya. Kuring ayeuna damel sareng dokter sareng ieu masih janten prosés anu terus diusahakeun, tapi, kuring bakal teras-terasan berjuang pikeun hal anu saé. Henteu ngan pikeun kuring tapi pikeun pamajikan kuring, indung kuring, kulawarga kuring sareng rerencangan kuring anu kuring cinta sareng perhatoskeun. Kuring percanten ka gusti sareng kuring percanten ka diri kuring.

Muka ka sadayana

I hate being single but at the same time I’m not sure if I’m ready for a long relationship or marriage but I guess that’s common for a lot of people.

A small confession from me

Abdi benci janten jomblo tapi dina waktos anu sami abdi henteu yakin upami abdi siap pikeun hubungan panjang atanapi nikah tapi abdi rasa éta umum pikeun seueur jalma.

Pengakuan leutik ti abdi

1. Watch a good movie
2. Read a good book
3. Being with my friends
4. Go on outings
5. Helping out in my community
6. Cooking new recipes
7. Do a bit of writing, I’m an amateur writer at best
8. Spending time with my family
9. Go on long walks with my dogs
10. Watching any tv show that I love

How I deal with my loneliness and anxiety

1. Nonton pilem anu saé
2. Maca buku anu saé
3. Babaturan sareng rerencangan kuring
4. Angkat ka luar
5. Bantosan di komunitas kuring
6. Masak resep anyar
7. Nulis saeutik, kuring mangrupikeun panulis amatir anu pangsaéna
8. Nyéépkeun waktos sareng kulawarga kuring
9. Angkat leumpang jauh sareng anjing kuring
10. Nonton acara tv anu kuring resep

Kumaha kuring ngatasi kasepian sareng kahariwang kuring

Let's make it official

Hayu urang resmiakeunnana

I want to give up on people yet  I always try to find best in everyone

How i feel

Kuring hoyong nyerah ka jalma-jalma tapi kuring salawasna nyobian milarian anu pangsaéna dina unggal jalma

Kumaha kuring ngarasa

Looking

Ningali

There exists within me a truth that I carry quietly, like a stone worn smooth by years of keeping it close: I am, at my core, a human being who feels deeply and connects fiercely. These are not merely words I throw into the world hoping they land somewhere meaningful—they represent the very architecture of how I move through life, how I see others, and how I hope to be seen in return.

When I walk through the world, I do so with a consistent awareness that every person I encounter is navigating their own invisible struggles. This awareness shapes my behavior in ways that might seem old-fashioned to some, perhaps even unnecessary to others. I hold doors open for strangers. I speak clearly and directly, making sure the person on the other end of my words doesn't have to strain to understand. Please and thank you live in my vocabulary not as politeness for politeness's sake, but as genuine expressions of gratitude for the small exchanges that stitch our days together. There is something profoundly human about these tiny moments of courtesy, a recognition that our brief intersections matter, that the cashier at the grocery store deserves the same respect I would show a dear friend.

I have been told more than once that I am well-spoken, that I carry myself with a certain decorum that feels refreshing in an age where brashness often gets mistaken for authenticity. But I want to be clear about something: this is not a performance. This is not me putting on a mask to navigate social waters more smoothly. Rather, it is simply how I am built. Sincerity flows through me like water through a channel it has carved over time. I cannot be anything other than genuine in my interactions, even when being genuine means offering more warmth than the moment might seem to demand. If that makes me unusual in today's world, then so be it. I would rather be known for being too kind than for being too indifferent.

Beneath this exterior of politeness and consideration, however, lies something quieter, something I rarely mention because I understand, perhaps better than most, that not everyone is prepared to receive it. There are days when all I want is to find a small corner somewhere—a literal or metaphorical space where I can sit with my feelings without needing to explain them, without needing to perform them for an audience. I carry a lot inside me. Joy, sorrow, hope, doubt, love, longing—they all pile up in the corners of my heart, and sometimes the weight of holding them silently becomes almost unbearable. I have learned, through years of practice and, frankly, through the varied responses I have received when I have been more open, to keep this inner life private. Not because I am ashamed of it, but because I have come to understand that not every person needs to be responsible for holding what I carry. That is my work, and I do it as gracefully as I can.

There is another dimension of myself that I keep similarly shielded. I have come to know, through careful self-reflection and the experiences that have shaped me, that I possess a submissive nature—not in any performative or theatrical sense, but in a genuine way that colors how I relate to others, how I find comfort in certain dynamics, how I derive meaning from connection. For a long time, I struggled with this knowledge. I tried to square it with who I appeared to be in professional settings, in casual friendships, in the polite interactions I have described above. But I have since made peace with it. I understand now that this part of me is not a contradiction to my otherwise assertive and courteous exterior—it is simply another facet of a complex person trying to navigate a world that doesn't always have a ready place for people like me.

What I have learned is that the most important thing I can do is be honest with myself about who I am while remaining respectful of the boundaries others need to maintain. I would never impose my nature on anyone. I would never expect a stranger or an acquaintance to be the keeper of this particular flame. But I mention it here because it is part of my truth, and this essay is about truth-telling, even when the telling is quiet.

If there is one thing I want the reader to take from these words, it is this: a hug matters more than we often acknowledge. When someone offers me genuine physical affection—a warm embrace, a squeeze of the shoulder, the simple acknowledgment that we are two humans standing in the same space—something profound shifts in me. It is as if the hug is saying, without words, that I am seen, that I am valued, that I am not alone in whatever I am carrying. It builds confidence in ways that praise sometimes cannot. It grounds me. It reminds me that connection is not a luxury but a necessity, as essential to my wellbeing as air or water.

I have learned to ask for these moments when I need them, though asking itself has been a practice. I have learned that vulnerability, when offered with care and received with grace, creates a pathway for deeper relating. I have learned that the person who hugs me is also receiving something—the knowledge that they were able to provide comfort, the reciprocation of warmth, the simple pleasure of human touch, which we too often deny ourselves out of politeness or discomfort.

So here I am, offering this piece of writing into the world as a small token of my own sincerity. I am a person who believes in kindness, who practices courtesy not as a social lubricant but as a genuine value, who carries invisible weights with as much grace as I can muster, who has parts of herself she reveals only to those who have earned the right to see them, and who believes deeply in the healing power of a simple embrace.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for holding space for these words. And if you see someone holding a door, saying please and thank you, or quietly hoping for a moment of connection—know that it might be me, and know that your small gesture of acknowledgment or, yes, even a simple hug, might make all the difference in their day. It certainly makes a difference in mine.

The Quiet Foundations of Connection

Aya hiji kayakinan di jero diri kuring anu kuring bawa kalayan tenang, sapertos batu anu geus lempeng ku taun-taun dijaga deukeut: kuring, di jero diri kuring, nyaéta manusa anu ngarasa jero sareng nyambung sacara kuat. Ieu sanés ngan saukur kecap anu kuring lemparkeun ka dunya kalayan harepan yén éta bakal nyampeurkeun ka tempat anu bermakna—ieu ngagambarkeun arsitektur kumaha kuring ngalangkungan kahirupan, kumaha kuring ningali batur, sareng kumaha kuring miharep pikeun katingali deui.

Nalika kuring leumpang ngaliwatan dunya, kuring ngalakukeunana kalayan kasadaran anu konsisten yén unggal jalma anu kuring temui nuju ngaliwatan perjuangan anu teu katingali. Kasadaran ieu ngabentuk tingkah laku kuring dina cara anu sigana kuno pikeun sabagian, meureun bahkan teu perlu pikeun batur. Kuring nyekel panto pikeun jalma asing. Kuring nyarita kalayan jelas sareng langsung, mastikeun yén jalma di sisi séjén kecap kuring henteu kedah ngaraos tegang pikeun ngartos. Mangga sareng hatur nuhun hirup dina kosakata kuring sanés salaku sopan santun pikeun sopan santun, tapi salaku ungkapan syukur anu tulus pikeun pertukaran leutik anu nyambungkeun poé urang. Aya hal anu jero manusa ngeunaan momen-momen leutik ieu, hiji pangakuan yén persimpangan urang anu singget penting, yén kasir di toko bahan pangan pantes nampi hormat anu sami anu kuring pasihkeun ka sobat anu dipikacinta.

Kuring parantos dicaritakeun langkung ti sakali yén kuring nyarita kalayan saé, yén kuring nyangking diri kalayan hiji tata krama anu karasa seger di jaman dimana kasombongan sering disalahartikeun salaku otentisitas. Tapi kuring hoyong ngajelaskeun hiji hal: ieu sanés hiji pagelaran. Ieu sanés kuring maké topeng pikeun ngalangkungan perairan sosial kalayan langkung lancar. Sabalikna, ieu ngan saukur kumaha kuring diwangun. Ketulusan ngalir ngaliwatan kuring sapertos cai ngaliwatan saluran anu parantos diukir salami waktos. Kuring henteu tiasa janten naon waé salian ti anu asli dina interaksi kuring, sanajan janten asli hartosna nawiskeun langkung kahaneutan tibatan anu sigana diperyogikeun ku momen. Upami éta ngajadikeun kuring aneh di dunya ayeuna, maka kitu waé. Kuring langkung milih dikenal salaku jalma anu teuing hadé tibatan teuing teu acuh.

Di handapeun penampilan sopan sareng perhatian ieu, kumaha ogé, aya hal anu langkung tenang, hal anu jarang kuring sebatkeun sabab kuring ngartos, meureun langkung saé tibatan kalolobaan, yén henteu sadayana siap nampi éta. Aya poé nalika anu kuring hoyong nyaéta mendakan pojok leutik di mana waé—ruang literal atanapi metaforis di mana kuring tiasa calik sareng perasaan kuring tanpa kedah ngajelaskeunana, tanpa kedah nampilkeunana pikeun pemirsa. Kuring nyangking seueur di jero diri kuring. Kabagjaan, kasedihan, harepan, keraguan, cinta, kahayang—sadayana ngumpul di pojok haté kuring, sareng kadang beuratna nyekel éta sacara hening janten ampir teu tiasa ditahan. Kuring parantos diajar, ngalangkungan taun-taun latihan sareng, jujur, ngalangkungan réaksi anu béda-béda anu kuring tampi nalika kuring langkung terbuka, pikeun ngajaga kahirupan jero ieu pribadi. Henteu sabab kuring isin, tapi sabab kuring parantos ngartos yén henteu sadayana kedah tanggung jawab pikeun nyekel naon anu kuring bawa. Éta mangrupikeun padamelan kuring, sareng kuring ngalakukeunana kalayan anggun sakumaha kuring tiasa.

Aya dimensi sanés tina diri kuring anu kuring jaga kalayan cara anu sami. Kuring parantos terang, ngalangkungan refleksi diri anu teliti sareng pangalaman anu parantos ngabentuk kuring, yén kuring ngagaduhan sifat anu tunduk—teu dina cara anu nampilkeun atanapi teatrikal, tapi dina cara anu asli anu ngagambarkeun kumaha kuring berhubungan sareng batur, kumaha kuring mendakan kenyamanan dina dinamika tertentu, kumaha kuring mendakan harti tina koneksi. Salami waktos anu lami, kuring berjuang sareng pangaweruh ieu. Kuring nyobian nyocogkeunana sareng saha kuring katingalina di lingkungan profesional, dina persahabatan santai, dina interaksi sopan anu kuring gambarkeun di luhur.

Dasar Tenang Koneksi

Is there a test for this? Or just basic trial and error? Because trial and error feels like too much pain.

How to even figure out which food are we intolerant or allergic to?

Naha aya tés pikeun ieu? Atawa ngan saukur percobaan dasar sareng kasalahan? Sabab percobaan sareng kasalahan karasa teuing nyeri.

Kumaha cara pikeun nyaho kadaharan mana anu urang intoleran atanapi alergi?

What if we live in the present and stop thinking about the future? Let's start living and giving more importance to today!

🤷🏼‍♀️

Naon upami urang hirup di ayeuna sareng eureun mikir ngeunaan masa depan? Hayu urang mimitian hirup sareng masihan langkung penting ka ayeuna!

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Do you ppl have any advice on how to stop being afraid of doing something? 
In my case I'm scared of driving, and this has stopped me from doing so many things. I would love to be more independent but any time I think about actually doing I just freeze. 
I know it takes practice, I do have my license, it just feels like something I'll never be able to do.

Leaving fears behind

Naha anjeun sadayana gaduh saran ngeunaan kumaha cara eureun sieun ngalakukeun hiji hal? 
Dina kasus kuring, kuring sieun nyetir, sareng ieu parantos ngeureunkeun kuring tina ngalakukeun seueur hal. Kuring hoyong langkung mandiri tapi unggal waktos kuring mikir ngeunaan leres-leres ngalakukeunana, kuring ngan ukur beku. 
Kuring terang éta peryogi latihan, kuring gaduh lisénsi, ngan ukur karasa sapertos hal anu moal tiasa kuring laksanakeun.

Ngaleungitkeun kasieun

Today is my birthday. I would love to hear some good words. Also I bought this 4 thousand pieces puzzle for myself lol

Ayeuna téh ulang taun kuring. Kuring hoyong ngadangu sababaraha kecap anu saé. Ogé kuring meuli 4 rébu potongan puzzle ieu pikeun diri kuring sorangan lol

Agree?

Satuju?

Or do you hate yourself so much that it's preferred you don't act as your true self?

I'm still confused why people choose such fake lives?...we're you all forced or do you actually enjoy it?

I pity those that have to lie to make a living....what a dreary existence for you. You should try living authentically instead of acting or expressing for approval of a group that lack morals... When are you actually your true self when working for companies like this?

Atawa anjeun benci ka diri anjeun pisan nepi ka langkung dipikaresep anjeun henteu ngalakukeun salaku diri anjeun anu sajati?

Abdi masih bingung kunaon jalma-jalma milih kahirupan anu palsu sapertos kieu?...naha anjeun sadayana dipaksa atanapi anjeun sabenerna resep kana éta?

Abdi nyeri ka jalma-jalma anu kedah bohong pikeun nyukupan kahirupan....sakedik pisan hirupna pikeun anjeun. Anjeun kedah nyobian hirup sacara otentik tibatan ngalakukeun atanapi nganyatakeun pikeun nampi persetujuan kelompok anu henteu boga moral... Iraha anjeun sabenerna janten diri anjeun anu sajati nalika damel pikeun perusahaan sapertos kieu?

#anxiety #depression #dopamine #adhd #nature #self #personal #wellness #wisdom

This is true.

#kecemasan #depresi #dopamin #adhd #alam #diri #pribadi #kaséhatan #kawijaksanaan

Ieu leres.

7 years ago I couldn't possibly imagine where life would take me. 
I'm just glad then and now I get to smile~

Time flies~

7 taun ka pengker kuring teu tiasa ngabayangkeun dimana kahirupan bakal mawa kuring. 
Kuring ngan saukur bungah ayeuna sareng ayeuna kuring tiasa seuri~

Waktu ngapung~

#universe #personal #self #outdoor #outdoors #nature #realizations #silence

I am always thankful about this.

Abdi salawasna bersyukur ngeunaan ieu.

cognitivefunctions

#realizations #motivation #selflove #self #selfhelp #persona #personal #universe #random #deepconversation

hence.. developing oneself is true self love...

ku kituna.. ngembangkeun diri sorangan téh cinta diri anu sajati...

Not sure why it's so hard for me to connect with people 😔

Just tired of this

Teu yakin kunaon ieu téh hésé pisan pikeun kuring nyambung sareng jalma-jalma 😔

Ngan capé ku ieu

10 years ago I was finishing my English language studies. At the time, I had no idea how it will change my life something I did on a whim~ and looking at myself I can't help but laugh for now I know everything she's gonna face. If I could I would hug her and tell her to be brave, to breathe and change even if it hurts 💔

Old graduation pic 🎓

10 taun ka pengker kuring réngsé diajar basa Inggris. Waktu éta, kuring teu boga ide kumaha éta bakal ngarobah hirup kuring, hal anu kuring lakukeun sacara dadakan~ sarta ningali ka diri kuring, kuring teu bisa henteu seuri sabab ayeuna kuring terang sagalana anu bakal dihadapi ku anjeunna. Lamun kuring bisa, kuring bakal ngagandeng anjeunna sarta nyaritakeun pikeun wani, pikeun napas sarta ngarobah sanajan éta nyeri 💔

Gambar lulusan heubeul 🎓

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My college just shut down course instruction for tomorrow because of the the protests about Gaza/Israel/Palestine right now...guess I'm free the rest of the week.

College protests getting intense...

Kampus kuring anyar waé nutup palajaran pikeun isukan kusabab protes ngeunaan Gaza/Israel/Palestina ayeuna...teu nyangka kuring bébas sésana minggu ieu.

Protes kampus jadi intens...

#introspection #persona #personal #personaldevelopment #selfacceptance

Wellness...

#introspeksi #persona #pribadi #pengembanganpribadi #nampa diri

Kesehatan...

I remember why I hate people so much.

The energy is SO dirty.

Or well, I don't hate people...maybe I do...just the healing needing in every person seems so grand. And of course, I have my own flaws...

I am excited for when I have multiple mansions in the future and can throw my own parties, play my own music and make an atmosphere that is...actually healing and comforting.

This I wish. This I manifest 🧿🧿🧿🧿

Every time I go bar hopping or clubbing...

Kuring émut kunaon kuring benci pisan ka jalma.

Energi na SO kotor.

Atau, kuring henteu benci ka jalma...meureun kuring benci...nanging kabutuhan penyembuhan di unggal jalma sigana pisan gedé. Sareng tangtosna, kuring gaduh kalemahan sorangan...

Kuring bungah pikeun waktos kuring gaduh sababaraha mansion di masa depan sareng tiasa ngadamel pesta sorangan, muterkeun musik sorangan sareng nyiptakeun suasana anu...sacara nyata nyembuhkeun sareng ngagembirakeun.

Ieu kuring ngarepkeun. Ieu kuring manifestasi 🧿🧿🧿🧿

Sakali kuring angkat bar hopping atawa clubbing...

This.

Ieu.

#wisdom #sensible #wellness #randomthoughts #selfdevelopment #personal #personaldevelopment

No need for deep conversation...

Teu perlu paguneman jero...

🧿 Living as a targeted individual, my gangstalkers try to displace where I live every 3 months...just to try and keep me in survival mode.

🧿So I really only have enough time to grow some herbs, but I so much desire to grow vegetables, fruits and flowers...

🧿 I am so jealous of these chaos witches and warlocks attempting to live my life, getting to have security (for now) and grow lush gardens...it's laughable that I'm still healthier than them because they do chaos magic...they are more stressed than me in bigger houses because of how they got it. The chaos magic shows on their face and with their health...

But they have guaranteed that I am having a future of wealth and abundance. I'll probably win the lottery and more. I am owed so much money for the crimes done against me, by my neighborhood, my ex, my family...the government.

If the world blows up before I get my justice, I know I can have my beautiful farm on the "New Earth" with my starseed family...but hopefully I can travel and visit this world here and have a beautiful farm here...

I'm glad I'm reverse aging at least. I'm going to live over 100 years old because of the things people have done to me...
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People keep "disappearing" from my neighborhood that came to threaten, intimidate, annoy, trigger or gangstalk me....some of their cars are abandoned and collecting cobwebs in the parking lot. It's eerie.

I wish I could garden...

🧿 Hirup salaku individu anu ditargetkeun, para gangstalker kuring nyobian ngusir tempat kuring cicing unggal 3 bulan... ngan pikeun nyobian ngajaga kuring dina modeu salamet.

🧿Jadi kuring sabenerna ngan ukur gaduh waktos anu cekap pikeun melak sababaraha rempah, tapi kuring pisan hoyong melak sayuran, buah-buahan sareng kembang...

🧿 Kuring pisan cemburu ka para penyihir sareng warlock kekacauan ieu anu nyobian hirup kahirupan kuring, meunang kaamanan (samentawis) sareng melak kebon anu subur... lucu yén kuring masih langkung séhat tibatan aranjeunna sabab aranjeunna ngalakukeun sihir kekacauan... aranjeunna langkung stres tibatan kuring di imah anu langkung ageung sabab kumaha aranjeunna meunangna. Sihir kekacauan katingali dina beungeut sareng kaséhatan aranjeunna...

Tapi aranjeunna parantos ngajamin yén kuring bakal ngagaduhan masa depan anu beunghar sareng melimpah. Kuring sigana bakal meunang undian sareng langkung seueur. Kuring berhak seueur artos pikeun kajahatan anu dilakukeun ka kuring, ku tatangga kuring, mantan kuring, kulawarga kuring...pamaréntah.

Upami dunya meledak sateuacan kuring meunang kaadilan kuring, kuring terang kuring tiasa gaduh kebon anu éndah di "Bumi Anyar" sareng kulawarga starseed kuring... tapi mugia kuring tiasa ngumbara sareng nganjang ka dunya ieu di dieu sareng gaduh kebon anu éndah di dieu...

Kuring bagja kuring ngora deui sahenteuna. Kuring bakal hirup langkung ti 100 taun sabab hal-hal anu dilakukeun jalma ka kuring...
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Jalma-jalma terus "ngahilang" ti tatangga kuring anu sumping pikeun ngancam, intimidasi, ngaganggu, nyababkeun atanapi gangstalk kuring....sababaraha mobilna ditinggalkeun sareng ngumpul jaring laba-laba di tempat parkir. Éta ngagero.

Kuring miharep kuring tiasa berkebun...

I forgot all about this app. 😂😂 I’m back and I’m sorry!

I forgot about you

Abdi hilap sadayana ngeunaan aplikasi ieu. 😂😂 Abdi parantos balik sareng abdi nyuhunkeun hapunten!

Abdi hilap ngeunaan anjeun

People will start to talk to you bcs they might find you pretty and interesting. But as much you tell them about you, being honest they will find you less interesting because you are not mysterious for them anymore. You shouldnt just tell them much about you, tell them all the lies and fancy things. #thoughts

Random thoughts

Jalma bakal mimiti ngobrol jeung anjeun sabab maranéhna bisa waé mendakan anjeun geulis jeung menarik. Tapi sabaraha anjeun nyaritakeun ngeunaan anjeun, jujur maranéhna bakal mendakan anjeun kirang menarik sabab anjeun henteu misterius pikeun maranéhna deui. Anjeun teu kedah ngan saukur nyaritakeun seueur ngeunaan anjeun, nyaritakeun sadaya bohong jeung hal-hal anu megah. #pikiran

Pikiran acak

Dear matches and friends,

If I haven't replied, I just recently relocated. Feel free to reach out again and say hi if I missed your message 👋

I just relocated

Dear matches sareng rerencangan,

Upami kuring teu acan ngabales, kuring anyar waé ngalih. Entong ragu pikeun ngahubungi deui sareng nyarios halo upami kuring sono pesen anjeun 👋

Kuring anyar waé ngalih

Harsh but reality

Hese tapi kanyataan

We are free to choose our paths, but we can't choose consequence that come with them.

Urang bébas milih jalur urang, tapi urang teu tiasa milih akibat anu datang sareng éta.

A Boo community for meeting other Personal enthusiasts.

Personal Community

Sakumaha waé.

Malam dinas pemadam kebakaran

Hai saha anu bosen di dieu? hayang ngobrol?

Muka ka sadayana

Pengakuan leutik ti abdi

Kumaha kuring ngatasi kasepian sareng kahariwang kuring

Oreo ❤️

Dina Minggu ieu kuring badé angkat ka konser sorangan. Kuring milih korsi di jalur supaya satengah awak kuring tiasa ngaraosan ruang pribadi.

Kakuatan Jagat pikeun mikanyaah

Saba/St. Kitts

Seni Terapeutik

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