So, I'm definitely oil and water, I don't mix well in myself, normally it takes a good 20min to 2 hours explanation of my sexuality type before people begin to understand me as a person, and that's if your attention span and willingness to understand is there, most people I meet don't even make it this far into the exploration before their self righteous opinion of one's self deems it not necessary to understand. So it's taken me the better part of my life to understand why I'm different, always knew I was, I jus didn't fit in growing up, and very incompatible with most, and when I did attempt anything, the flames, oh how high they went.. I did however meet two people (my entire life) that I clicked with, as much as I wanted to enjoy the experience, I was learning about myself at the same time, wanting to know and understand so I could better be prepared, well because it has always ended and never been solid. I do however feel after this last attempt, I do believe I have a solid understanding of myself and sexuality, and why I say, very oil and water! However I am still valid and coming to understand how complicated I am makes me wonder about others and how intricate the details of what makes them tick are. And to be clear, I was raised traditional and tried to live that life, it never happened or worked, but my viewpoint is a very rare one indeed. I see others laughing and smiling and happy, it's great, and I kinda want that, but I don't feel that. So, remember I said I met two people that pushed all the right buttons? Well imagine knowing what you want, but every time the other person never reciprocates it, or every attempt usually is a risk of another scar upon a fragile heart. And the fact when I try to communicate this, normally it starts an argument or a fight, WHY? Idfk ... I'll just assume God hates me and it was a practical joke gone wrong. So besides all the sexuality stuff, I am human, I am a person, I like to smile and laugh, I enjoy being a friend and a good person. I just had another birthday alone.. and here comes the holiday season, I think I'm just going to hibernate, call me when it's over, I can't stand to watch. Sure I'm happy for you.. be grateful your needs are simplistic... I am however sad no one compatible ever felt that way about me.. I have decided, it's better to be alone than with someone I truly can't have feelings for, as much as I hate it, I'd rather my needs not be a burden to humanity so I'll jus go hide so no one sees my struggles, jus know it kills me and I struggle daily, even though I don't show it, it's caused me too much trauma and the wreckage is immense. Hope died a long time ago, with the time that passes is a day I'll never get back. This is my world, I try to break out of it, but the constant struggles of life, not to mention a failing economy and extreme political hatred surrounding society. Life is peachy! If u made it this far, congrats, I'm sorry I wasted 5 minutes of your life you will never get back, but I will say, please do comment your opinion, I've almost heard them all by now, I like understanding this and perspectives. To be clear, this was about sexuality. Be thankful you're not me👍 (edited)

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