Paranoid Community

Ok so look

Growing up I seen articles of cases, with husbands or boyfriends taking their wives or gfs on hiking trips, or up mountains, and pushing them off of them. Oh! Even the grand canyon one and he returned by himself. He X her. Any way I always stay away from guys who "hike" or want to go out in... (edited) read more

Over explaining

Do you sometimes explain something to someone, but you get too into it because you want to make sure they understand where you are coming from completely? Then you end up over explaining and then recapping by repeating it again to make sure they got all the info down and now you’re paranoid... read more

Would you believe me

if I said that I'm an ecologist and an obscure writer, dejected, both academically and socially. I write here because people read something that I put out and respond to me so I do not spiral into psychosis. My husband divorced me because I was scared of his potential and we had ideological... read more

Anxiety

If she didn't keep her promise and couldn't survive that night, would she be forgiven? She was struggling. Every day she swears she does. It's just that she can't see herself being part of a world that only looks out for its own interests. A world that only seeks personal well-being. She doesn't... read more

I miss who I was...

I miss who I was before the childhood trauma, before the military, before the lying to myself and eventually anyone else in my life. I miss the fearlessness in me and the adventurous side of me before I saw all the wrong parts of this world and became this paranoid person that is so cynical. I wish... read more

Tool - Forty Six and Two (1996)

Join in my Join in my child And listen, digging through My old numb shadow My shadow's shedding skin I've been picking scabs again I'm down, digging through My old muscles looking for a clue I've been crawling on my belly Clearing out what could've been I've been wallowing in my own confused And... read more