Joshua

Posted Thursday, July 28, 2022

1y

INFP

Scorpio

1

9

Diagnosed severe anxiety and depression

A little about my journey, with the intent that it may help others. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression a year before covid hit. Took me out of my full-time work. I would have panic attacks most times I would leave the house. It was horrible, lowest point in my life. I went through doctors who prescribed heavy anti anxiety medications, they numbed my entire being, I literally couldn't feel things anymore and i would still have episodes. I saw the psychs as well and they didn't help with the root of the issue and tried to fit me back into a routine that was not helping me get better. I got really tired of the ring around the rosy game, that's what it felt like. So I kept looking for ways to get myself better. I came across some other people's experiences with similar issues and their recovery stories. Namely meditation and breathwork as the beginning to my self healing journey. I started to look into what was causing my pain and feelings, started learning about the world we live in, not society, but the natural world and started to see something bigger than what we are led to believe is there and we are part of. I was able to ween myself off my medications after a couple of weeks doing consistent meditation, breathwork and time in nature. Then over the years I went inside myself and took account of everything inside me that caused me pain and sat with it and worked through it until it no longer caused pain and i arrived at a place of accepting and loving those things I once feared and hated. Fast forward a few years, I have never been more in my own skin and I still have moments and slips, but I now have tools that I use to get myself back out in almost no time at all. I have not had a panic attack in years since I started the meditations and I love life again like I did when I was much younger!