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Posted Sunday, July 14, 2024
1mo
INFP
Cancer
One year older
So with my year survival anniversary coming up, my parents have been asking what I want. And now ot os time to indulge in my self pity. I want to have what I had, but that is not possible. I want to be free, but I cannot stand on my own two legs and pursue my dream. I want to see my cat daughter and son again, I miss them dearly. I wish I didn't have to be strong anymore, it is very tiring. But there is work to be done, and no one else seems to be willing to do it. I know my cat children are in good hands. I choose this living situation so as to focus my energies elsewhere (and the housing market here is insane). And what I had can never be, we have both changed too much. Eventually companions leave, and their void can never be filled. So I shall simply take a breath, and keep one foot in front of the other. Stay cool out there, Mouse 🐁
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