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Posttraumaticstressdisorder

posttraumaticstressdisorder

Note to self: 
I love you
I wish I wasn’t so broken and insecure 
I wish I could show you how much you mean to me

You are strong, brave, resilient 
You are everything
You 🐝You that is what matters

trauma dumping I guess

A must read for understanding trauma

Fact

I've been forced upon and this guy on here asked if I liked it. I want to cry. Why does everyone ask this? Was it my fault? This isn't fair.

I hate myself

Can someone develop PTSD from work stress?

People who have been diagnosed with PTSD having emotional neglect and/or mental abuse as the trauma, have you been able to go back to work? If you have returned to work, what kind of work you're doing and how is your mental health with that work?

Work

I just experienced my first PTSD reaction to an event that could have been easily avoidable & am now ugly crying because of it. 

Even though I've been reminded of something that traumatized me severely in the past, I am glad that I've healed enough from the hurt to not wallow in the feeling. 

I let it wash over me...the fear from the trauma...the longing of what could have been...& the grief over what I was denied. I let myself cry big heaving sobs. I let my face contort into an ugly grimace. I let the tears fall hot & heavily as I lay here on my bed.

I know I am worth the wait. I know that this pain I carry makes me a better person. I may not be perfect, but I know I can offer more than just physical gratification. I am more than just a body providing pleasure. My boundaries are worth respecting.

So to the person who I give my heart to, please be gentle. Be gentle with my heart.

Be Gentle With My Heart

Just had someone give me flashbacks of being suicidal I'm trembling 😣

Please refrain from talking about death, knives, and blood around me.

-No matter how much u explain and put efforts in making your point clear, someone just don’t listen actively nor really understanding what u trying to express.

-Ignored your boundaries and bottom lines, keep doing what they want without caring for how u feeling.

-When u point out the problems that hurt u or make u uncomfortable, they think u are the problems. 

- Not accepting the authentic and complete you, either blaming your reactions or avoiding you.

- Activated your self-protection mode and then blame you why so, or even push u out of it. 

- The action doesn’t match with the words. 

- They get upset when u treat them the exact same way they treat u, but still not acknowledging how u’ve been hurted. 

- Those who always taking from u more than giving u back. 

-Control freak 

-Manipulating you

-Physical violence 


Welcome to add more based on your experiences.


 Have u ever got along with toxic people?

Be aware of toxic people

The type of prey I never wanted to be:

Run run RUN! My head screams desperately. But there is nowhere and no one to run to. I can't want to.  His promises and apologies sound so good, like dripping honey on my tongue. Giving me hope. Showing me a glimmer of what used to be. But I know that honey is poisonous. The temptation to drown in it after being starved for so long is just too much to resist. Wrapping me in his arms used to make me feel like a a princess protected by a dragon. But now..... I feel more like a hunted meal. His very presence have long turned from warm and safe, to hard and imprisoning.
So why do I stay you ask? Because when prey tries to run, the hunt begins.

The prey I never wanted to be

I've recently decided to get help for my trauma so I have no idea how to cope major triggers.  Two of which are crowds and men, which are everywhere.

I would appreciate it if those that have tried and true coping methods would share them

Coping Techniques

"Exquisite Corpse" by Angel

Am I having a nightmare? 
Maybe a heart attack? 

My head hurts
My heart truly feels like it's breaking 

This pain is probably why they want me on suicide watch
Because it's taking a lot out of me not to point a knife into my chest to alleviate some of this pain

But I won't
I've felt this before
I'm familiar with the pain and pattern
So I just breathe

But the temptation 
The sweet sweet release from this pain

*****

I've felt blood coming from my chest before
When I punched a window 
Part of the shattering glass cut my chest
It was warm and sticky 

I collapsed to the ground naturally trying to dodge the glass shard from piercing my heart
I cried at my innate response
Such a natural instinct to recoil and dodge the shard despite my feelings
I would have felt the release then if I hadn't

I remembered my nightmare last night

A lot people don’t understand how PTSD hurts. Here we are. 
Thanks for those who have made me experience them all.

Be clear about what are the triggers

Wish I could relax

Oh how I wish I didn't have flashbacks from the time I was a hostage 

although I eacaped by myself the torture I went through never leaves my mind 

If I could ask for anything I'd ask for some prayers on being delivered from this

Having next to no sleep, always scared to sleep because the fear of revisiting memories, scared of touch and always feeling like your never good enough even when you give it your all.

Anyone else feels like this?

Man I hate this time of year. Fireworks are the worst

Fireworks

Being ignored is my worst trauma

It really does feel like that. You struggle a bunch at first and then you just slowly sink in. Then it's years later and you're still there. You can't breath, or see, or smell even. It just consumes you completely. It does seem like it's possible to have a rope thrown down and to be dragged back up, but that's hard when you're alone. Much love to all my people drowning in sand.

Quicksand.

When the voices, the dogs say ain’t there, and everyone else says ain’t there, are plotting your murder should you leave your room?

Don’t you hate…

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Note to self: I love you I wish I wasn’t so broken and insecure I wish I could show you how much you mean to me You are strong, brave, resilient You are everything You 🐝You that is what matters (edited)

trauma dumping I guess

A must read for understanding trauma

Fact

I hate myself

Can someone develop PTSD from work stress?