Bruce

Posted Saturday, November 18, 2023

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Heroes Don't Wear Capes. Period.

I think probably I should write this in another channel, but perhaps it'll help someone to read. Last year I was diagnosed with a cancer. I spend 5 months, every other week, in a bed literally dying of the "cure" from the thing killing me - myself. I recovered only to take a trip across the country and live homeless in a tent for 4 months the following summer of 2023. Initially there were suppose to be fire calls and I gave myself away to contribute hours and physical labor. The most excruciating physical labor I've ever endored. Turns out though, we really didn't have any calls and so I eventually turned tail and came back to seek out my old job. The job I had worked for a few years and aquired friends through. This job was no lomger available though, because the entire place was flooded under water. I lost my savings, my job and barely was making a recovery in my health. That wasn't enough though because a few short months later the people I've been staying with got an eviction notice. My family and their residency of 12 years is being sold out from underneath them. At the end of December a new location is required to move to. Just this past week I was told that I would likely owe a $9,600 medical bill for CT Scans on my upper body - The potential One Year Celebration to being cancer free. This is my life. Craziest it has ever been. The morale isn't to sit here and compare stories, as we certainly can, but instead to realize that as all this is happening: I'm remaining pretty positive and hoping/wishing for the best. The attitude I have is more ironic now than ever. I'm staying rather optimistic and determined to overcome. So, if I can do this - you can do what you're doing, alright?

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Your strength and positivity are inspiring. I found out that I had severe heart failure in mid July, Tuesday of next week I will officially be put on the transplant list in the third or second to highest need status. I too have been doing my best to be positive every day as well. It is hard to find out that you are going to be either of our situation. Also my childhood hero was a homeless military vet when I first met him, so that is nothing to be ashamed of. Wear your cape of scars proudly, you have earned it hero

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Bruce

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Well, the title is misleading. I don't claim I'm a hero. Nor am I a crowning example. Not trying to fluff my feathers or be egotistical. It's just a very commin saying I've heard over the years. X-military; I can't even fathom that. If anyone had stories and was inspiring then that was it.

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@Bruce I didn't believe you were calling yourself a hero, you sound tired and downtrodden. I was giving you the mantle of hero, because what is a hero but someone who can inspire people to get through their hardest of times! I originally met him as "the shoe man," who was going through neighborhoods and buying groups of women and children two pairs of shoes from Nordstrom Rack. For me it was my first shoes that weren't hand me downs. The weeks afterwards I would be walking my dogs and run into him daily, while he was sun bathing on an art piece near the reservoir behind the motel / trailer park I was living in, circa age 12. He would tell me stories about random things and give me a Warheads candy. Well one day I walked around the other side of the art piece when I didn't see him there and he was sleeping on the ground in the shelter of the art piece. I let him sleep and went home to ask my mom if he could live with us and stay in my room, a similar situation had allowed for her friends in their time of need. A situation we had been in during the past. She approved and the next day I told him what I had discussed with my mom and her decision. He accepted and lived with us for two years. I found out that he was a Vietnam vet, active military historian, and on call black ops sniper. He was living homeless because he felt guilty about the women and children he had to kill during service. An act he originally refused until the day a mother with her child came out of her home and approached the Marine team he was tasked with protecting as a sniper. She blew herself up, killing his entire team. He never hesitated again. That was why he refused to spend any of his income on himself and instead bought women and children shoes. During the two years he lived with us he taught me how to read, how to have moral, and how to be a man. He eventually called CPS on my parents because my youngest brother's dad was molesting my little sister and and his (the step father's) own son. He was more than my friend, he was my hero.

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@Dylan I couldn't even imagine living a life like this guy. I realize some of that was his own choosing for some misplaced guilt, but without those decisions he never would have met you/your family. Strange how these events work. Making assumptions here; It took a kid to somehow change this man's perception and give him some ground to stand on internally. I would dare say help him in turning back his situation. Again; I can't even imagine.

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@Bruce I think the reason childhood me was able to help him heal some was because I represented the type of people he felt guilty towards. I was innocent and broken, having every reason to mistrust adults, yet I trusted and accepted him without question. He helped me to heal and become confident as a person as well. So the benefit of our friendship was mutual.

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